What keeps my life going...

My terrible life

     I am a 16 year old boy, my name is Chuck. I feel abandoned by the people i love but i just cant help it but to just love them. My parents are separated and I live with my single mom who just cant stop drinking and beating me for no reason while i visit my dad who just tells me that I'm the reason they got divorced.

After all the things i see my mom do after they got a divorce i think I'm starting to believe it. I only have one true friend, his name is Luis. He's been with me since pre-kinder so its safe to say that we know each other very well and he has gained all my trust well the only person who has. Im currently in the 11th grade I've been in love with the same girl since 6th grade. Every time i start to think about my life i wonder why am i still here if i don't have anything to do in this world?

I look at my body I'm just a skinny kid, I get bullied all the time in school why do i even exist? Does God hate me? Why so much pressure on a 16 year old kid?... Well I finally realized that Angelica the love of my life is the real reason why I live...

Just by thinking of her name i get chills and just fall in love with the sound of it. Only problem is that why would she even focus on me she is so perfect and do beautiful and I am just a nerd that no one even knows I exist. All I have ever wanted to at least do was just get the guts to talk to her... I love her but i just cant tell her...