Random Stuff... I don't know.

My 18th Birthday

   Hey everyone! How are you? Me? I'm alright. Today is my birthday! I woke up at 4:00 am this morning and I still felt like I was tired. So, I tried going back to sleep but it was difficult. My body was telling me not to while my mind was welcoming sleep. it was a weird situation, but I finally did go back to sleep around 5:30 am Eastern Time and then woke back up at 7:00 am

   I had planned on updating one of my stories today, but I don't think that's going to happen until either tomorrow or Tuesday after school. I have a project I'm working on for one of my classes and I kinda need to get it done. So, if anything, it will probably be out on Tuesday but I'm not making any promises on that.

   Later around lunch time my mom is taking us out to eat at Monical's Pizza and when we get back we are probably going to relax a bit before eating cake and ice cream. Then I am going to leave to a friend's house to watch movies and have popcorn and such at her place. I invited a few of my other friends but it seems that only one out of the three will be able to make it. which is fine to me I get it. Life happens and screws you over sometimes. But there's no sense in complaining about it at the moment.

   I'm happy with what I have and I don't want to trade it for the world. My friends are still my friends, my family still loves me even though at times it doesn't seem like it. And I'm just all around living in the moment. 

(you can skip everything else I wrote down if you want to)

Cause your life doesn't start in the past and certainly not in the future. Sure everyone can face forward and move in either direction but your life that you have been so busy moving along trying to get things done and not even taking a second to stop and smell the roses. All of your "Today"s are your moments. Sure you can take a picture and turn that little bit of memory into something "meaningful" but to me Everyday, Everyone, and Everything has a meaning to it. Whatever it is, whoever it is, where it came from, etc. is all irrelevant to me because you can be the nastiest or the most beautiful person in the world but have the same personalities, hobbies, whatever it is you do. 

*Takes a deep breathe and exhales*  

 Too many times I've seen people take their lives for granted and not think about consequences and in the end has ended them in being hurt in some sort of way. 

  Money can only take you so far, Your friends and family can only help you so much, but It's not enough. There is a time that you can make you own decisions with whatever and whoever it may be, but please I just want everyone to know... Don't be a fool and stop everything you have been doing for however long you've done it. you came here for a reason whether you know it or not. In times like these where we don't know everything... Be cautious about it. And please whatever you do... whenever you think "I can't do this." Think of the reason why you held on in the first place, or remind yourself whom or what your doing this for.

This is more of a "letting my thoughts and feelings out" sort of chapter. You don't need to read too much into it if you don't want to.

But the last thing I ever want is to have someone look at this and say "they don't know what they're talking about" and brush off whatever problems they have. I do know what I'm talking about and if you want me to be more blunt about it here it goes. 

(you can skip the next paragraph if you want to. I'm just ranting at this point.)

  Suicides, Car accidents, Cancer, Strangers, Kidnappings, Family, Friends, Pets, School, Work, Wherever, Whatever, Whenever, and Whomever, All play a role in our individual lives. your story maybe different from mine, but Don't You Dare Ever say that "No one knows how I feel." or "No one's going to..." ( you fill in the blank there...) Cause if there is your story then someone else out there has at least a similar problem, if not the same problem, as you.....

Don't be dumb.