Risking Reason

Dear Classmates

What are you doing?

What did I do to deserve this?

What makes you think I am not good enough?

What is your problem with me?

Do you realise the power you have over me and my thoughts?

Do you realise every time you add that little snide remark or snicker that it hurts?

Do you realise that I've been through enough already?

Do you know how much everything you do hurts?

Who gives you that authority?

Who tells you to do it? Is it him?

Who told you that?

Who told the teachers? It wasn't me but I'll take them blame makes no difference if they know or not.

How did you know that about me?

How do you even know what you are saying is true?

How strange do you think I am again? It's not like I've heard it 600 times.

How much do you think you saying this hurts?

When will you realise what this is doing to me?

When will you realise what this has done to me?

When will it become clear to you that I don't like what you are saying?

When will I be able to say "I'm used to it."?

Why do it?

Why put me through this?

Why say those things if you don't even know if they are true?

Why is this only happening to me?

Isn't it strange that this has been happening for 3 years yet I still cry over the same things?

Isn't it bothersome that I'm still around?

Isn't "Freak!" "Wierdo!" and "Your so lame!" so old school? Lets get a little more extravagant.

Isn't what you are doing going to backfire one day?

Let me answer that last one because well it's the only one I can. Yes it will, because tonight I am free and I'm gonna break these chains and say goodbye to everyone tonight.