So I've made my decision and hopefully I made the right one. I forgave him, well I don't even know if it's considered forgiving if he didn't even say sorry. So everything is amazing, he's amazing. He tells me I'm beautiful, says good morning and goodnight, tells me he loves me, says he's not leaving me, and told me I was the best thing that happened to him...but I still wonder is that even true? Did he mean anything he said? Does he really love me? Will he ever leave me? I've been wondering what even is love? Is it just a fuckboy thing? An inspiration to go to school? Love was just an ordinary word for me until he gave it a meaning. Love is a word NOBODY can agree the meaning on. Maybe for scientists it's just a feeling in your brain. Maybe for sluts it's the feeling when you wanna have hot coffee, but for me it's when you'll never leave that person no matter what, when you smile uncontrollably for no apparent reason...No matter how many times he will hurt me I will still love him, my love is unconditional and nothing can change that. Love was just another stupid word until "he" gave it a meaning.
I've been wondering so much lately. I've been thinking why do we smile?, why do we cry?, why does our heart beat faster when we see someone special?, why do we even bother to live? It all adds up to "love." I've always wondered why we even bother living in such a cruel world, where in we kill animals with no pity, we watch people suffer for our laughter, we have fun while people starve to death...but how can I leave a world when there's someone like you in it? How can I leave such an amazing, talented, cute, funny, and sweet person like you. The world may be so cruel at times but with you in it, it can't be.
We work, we suffer, we stay up all night doing our homework, we starve ourselves to save money...and why do we do that? We do that because we need to live. We think that our job is the reason to why we live but truth is its "Love." Love is the thing we live for. Why live when you have nothing to live for? Love keeps us alive. Whether rich or poor you need love to survive. Hobos have no jobs and yet we see them smile and why is that? It's because of love. Like what the Beatles Said: "Love is all you need."
