colours // yoonmin

five

p r o m i s e s ;
As much as I love Mrs Im Hye-Ju, I don't care for her requests, specifically friend related ones. She's been asking that for a few years now, begging for me to make a friend, making up all sorts of speeches of the importance of friendship and whatnot which would, surprisingly, give me a boost of motivation to actually talk to someone other than her. But that motivation is short-lived and I would get bored and give up a day later, at most a week.

So when Yoongi only appeared at his window again only two days later, it was too late. And I was actually pumped to talk to him. Was.

But I am already completely awake and have nothing planned so I think why not? I manoeuvre to his window and knock on the pane in this random pattern I made up on the spot to alert him of my presence. I quite liked the beat and kept it in the back of my head for next time.

He quickly pulls the window open.

"Hello?" His voice says and I melt as it resounds in my ear. He speaks with a lilt I identify to be Daegu, which I presume was his former home before coming to this sad neighbourhood. It is the type I wouldn't mind listening to all day or have my whole life narrated with. I keep quiet though, not really feeling like talking.

"Don't be afraid, I'm nice." His voice becomes more hushed, more gentle. "You don't have to be shy. I know I'm a bit weird but I'm a good person, promise."

I almost feel bad.

"Not much of a talker, huh?" he laughs nervously, "Well, in case you forgot, I'm Yoongi, Min Yoongi. I'm fifteen and I recently moved into this neighbourhood. Just moved in a week ago, I believe. I'm not sure though aha. It's not easy to keep track of the time when you're..."

He shuts his mouth, licking it before opening it again.

"How's life going? Good? I hope so." He says, taking pauses after each sentence as if he's waiting for a response, which of course never comes, before continuing. "Life's been okay for me. Still getting used to the house. I've been exploring it and it's not as big as the previous one which is better I guess. I won't bump into the wall as much." He stifles a chuckle, a soft smile forming on his face.

It disappears in a blink of an eye. "I'm not allowed to leave the house though. She said I would with her supervision but it's an empty promise, just like everything else she said..."

He turns a dull blue and my eyebrows knits together in worry. His words triggers something in my brain and I feel nostalgic, heart heavy. For a second, I see me standing behind the window instead of him. I must be going crazy, I think.

"I wish they could just stop focusing on me so much and live a bit." He heaves a sigh. His head tilts down and he stares down at the floor for a few seconds.

I almost pity him.

He shrugs before looking up again. "It's just... I've been lonely and I'm just glad you're here."

His mouth tugs into a wistful smile, a faraway look on his face. He bites down on his bottom lip and slowly stretches his hand out the window. He gulps and I watched the spit move down his throat before glancing at his open palm. He was reaching out for something. Me.

His hands are bony, long and huge compared to mine. I stare at it for a minute, a debate on whether to hold it or not ravaging through my mind.

And then I see it again, I see me in his place. I blink twice and rubbed my eyes but when I open them again, it's still me. I bite my tongue and held my index finger out slowly moving it-

-closer

and closer

and closer.

He retracts it just about as it's about to meet the skin on his hand. The facade falls and I see Yoongi again. His ears twitch just like it did on Saturday and he rushes to close the window. Then the curtain. And I am left standing there, dazed and confused.

I give myself a quick pinch on the arm to try to wake myself up but all it does is leave a sting that dulled down significantly before disappearing altogether. I shrug it off, do what I do best which is to shove it to the back of my mind. Deal with it when I remember.

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rocky looks so hot in confession man, i can't even. and i didn't look through this  aha :')