His thin lips crashed down on to mine, rough and needing. I gasped in shock; he used that opportunity to roughly engage my tongue with his. Pushing me hard and fast into the wall. He was exotic a whole new different flavor so very different to the last jock I'd dated. His rich cologne surrounding us in an intoning haze, sending icy shivers down my spine. My need for him was growing stronger by the second. His hands never left my hips rubbing up and down, the feeling was so different, enticing so different from being groped and felt up.
That's when reality hit me. And the little voice that was going insane at the back of my head brought me crashing down.
Are you stupid! He's only snogging you because you're dressed as an effing guy! He is gay you dumb ass! Do you have any dignity he is using you! Get his filthy hands off of you! Thank you my conscience. Then I kneed him in the balls. Doubling over in pain he glanced up at me through half lidded eyes filled with lust.
Glaring at him with disgust. I marched through the doors to the front of the saloon. I looked around wildly, err I couldn't believe I had been such an idiot. Shit!
Wait a minute I didn't curse me Annie I never cursed never. Shit! There I did it again. Nor would I ever knee a guy in the balls. I mean yeah sure I was tough, I could take down anyone in a fight. But that was different you had to right, to come out top, become better. But this was different unladylike rough. Guyish?
I felt different though. As if a part of me had been released, the real me with no pretences. I could be who ever I wanted. No one would know. This disguise would help me achieve that. I was whole again, the crap that Jack had caused was long forgotten.
I spotted rick talking to P, looking flustered. Yep he probably knew he was in for a hiding, for ditching me. I walked over calmly to them.
"Hey P, how's it going." I growled deepening my voice. And shoving my hands deep into my pockets.
"Hey." He replied, I winked at him when Rick wasn't looking. I nodded at rick he glanced at me his expression completely normal.
"So yeah Uncle P, I saw this extremely hot babe dark haired with stunning eyes you think you can hook me up with her." Rick clenched his fists glancing at me with utter hatred.
"Keep your fifthly hands off her. "His icy blue eyes burned with furry. I couldn't help but burst out laughing.
"Yeah man, I could definitely do some wonderful things with my hands and a body like that, don't you think. " I wriggled my eyebrows suggestively.
"You think this is funny???" he was tuning red. I doubled over with laughter, damn this was funny.
"Rick, it's me."I said in my normal voice.
"Oh" I watched him deflate turning from a deep crimson to a passable blush then back to normal. Uncle P just stood there amusement written all over his face I couldn't help but grin. Then what I said hit him.
"Annie????But, But. I thought ...you were a guy. What!"
The taxi ride to the train station was a quiet one. I had left Pink Sexy Star full of hope and new found courage.
Dragging my luggage behind me I made it to my platform. Just in time after nearly falling flat on my face countless time due to the stupid wheels on my bags, I hated those silly buggers.
"Bye, then." Rick's voice found me through my muddled thoughts. He stood there gazing at me with shining blue orbs, and his hands in his pockets. Emotion over took me, in one fluid motion I'd dropped my bags and pulled him to me.
I knew I needed to go. But I couldn't pull away from his warm embrace. He was like the brother I never had. I started to pull away hearing the guard's frantic two minute warning behind me. Laying my head into the crook of his neck. I breathed him in one last time, his own sensual fragrance so very different from other guys that usually slathered themselves in nothing but aftershave. He smelt of comfort fabric conditioner, and warm skin. The smell took me back years in my mind, the feel of both of us as kids, carefree and young.
Forcing myself back into the present , I looked up at him.
"I'll call you." I muttered to him.
"Promise me you'll take care of yourself. And behave." He told me sternly but I could see a sad smile breaking out.
"Don't I always.
With a sad smile I boarded, watching him slowly fade from the window as the train pulled away....
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sorry been reli busy with skl an shit x
