To My Special Kim Myungsoo

Hello Myungsoo, L, LKim, Mingsoo, Myungie.

Hi My Kim Myungsoo, my precious and special Kim Myungsoo. 

First of all, I'm hurt. Yes, I am hurt. It hurts so bad to the point that I can't barely breathe already because of this heavy feeling I'm feeling right now. I also cried until there are no more tears coming out from my eyes. They are both red. It hurts, really. I'm really hurt but I don't blame you. I blame myself for getting my hopes up, hoping that you and me are meant for each other, and hoping that there is a possibility that I'll be yours and you'll be mine. ((I still hope tho. :3))

Myungsoo- ah, I'm sorry for being mad and disappointed. You understand me right? Sorry also for having this tini tiny bit part of me that still cant accept that you love someone already. You can't blame me right? I just felt this way because I have been loving you for so long now. Yes that is right! I have been loving you for so long now, so why stop? I should not stop just because of this. Right? I should be happy. Yes, I should be happy because you are happy. I want you happy.

Oh! And look at the bright side. You having a girlfriend is a sign that you are growing up! Haha! Who knows that the little childish, naive and baby myungsoo of mine will already grow up and be a man. I am so proud of you. I really am. Imagine you... confessing to a girl about your feelings, that takes a great courage! Clap clap for my brave little Myungsoo! I am glad she accepted you. I'm glad she didn't turned you down. You'll be sad if she did, and I don't want that. I don't I dont. I dont want Kim Myungsoo sad.

I know Doyeon is hurting right now, and you must be too. I know you are caring and loving, you don't want Doyeon to feel that way. I know you don't. I'm sorry that I can't do anything for other people to stop. I'm really sorry.

Myungsoo-ah, are you crying right now? are you hurting right now because of this? Please don't. I don't want you to cry. I want to see that smile of yours. I want you happy. I want to hear your funny laugh. I want you to be the happy Myungsoo. The happy Myungsoo that laughs at simple things. The Myungsoo that always plays around. The Myungsoo that always wears a smile whenever and wherever. 

Myungie, people do come and go. Some people might leave you because of what's happening today. Dont worry about them. You still have someone. You have me. You have your fans. You have your friends. You have your famiy. You have Infinite.

I know you don't know me. I'm just one of the fans you have taken a glance at. I am just one of those girls who loves you so much eventhough I know that you dont know I exist-- but remember I will never get tired of being that girl. I will never get tired of loving you. NEVER. I will still let the words 'I Love Kim Myungsoo' escape from my mouth. You will still have this special place in my heart. I will still always smile because of you. I will always love you Kim Myungsoo. I will always be an inspirit. I will always be a Myungsoo stan.

Dont worry Myungie. It's just a challenge. As like you said, all problems have answers. Take it like a math exam. I know you can do it. You are Kim Myungsoo! Kim Myungsoo is more than a pretty face. Kim Myungsoo is brave, strong, loving, caring and so much more. Kim Myungsoo is special. Kim Myungsoo is one in a million. 

I LOVE YOU KIM MYUNGSOO. NO WORDS CAN EXPLAIN HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. I WILL ALWAYS BE HERE. INSPIRITS WILL UNDERSTAND YOU! WE LOVE YOU! STAY STRONG.

Love,

Your Fan. ♡