Hi, my name is Samantha Smith but my friends call me Sam. I'm blonde, have an average height, I don't not have the kind of body that every girl would wish for, and as far as I'm concerned I'm not beautiful and one more thing I HATE MY LIFE!!
When I was small, people usually say I looked like a boy especially when I cut my hair. I never complain when they say because I liked myself that way and maybe because I actually did not really care about how I looked. I was a very quiet and reserved girl then and did not really have many friends. I had a crush on one of my friend, Blake. He was my principal's son, he was so so cute, smart, easy to talk to, and he could freaking sing, his voice was worth dying for, now tell me why I shouldn't fall for him.
He usually gets into trouble with our teacher and when they try to report him to his dad he is always giving the 'I don't give a damn' attitude but if u observe him closely (which I am always doing) u would see traces of fear in his green eyes( those eyes that I always get lost in) but he never really showed it which is one thing I adore in him.
We were really close friends that at a point I thought he liked me. In the night I would always dream of playing with him and any other thing children like doing.
But when we were 13 I started having doubts of his feelings towards me, then I remembered that he had actually never told me that he likes me. He started hanging out with another girl(a new girl) in my class than with me. Since she started attending the school I got jealous of her, she was gorgeous, she had eyes as blue as the sky, extremely smart while I was kinda dumb, and tall but she had a bitchy attitude and loves discriminating. One of my friends over heard her telling her friends that she thinks dumb people are not worthy of being friends with her. I was shocked to think she believes people want to be friends with her, I mean who in his right senses would want to be friends with a snobby idiotic bitch like her. The fact that she was stealing Blake from me only made me hate her the more.
Sometimes when I see then playing I would try to play with them. Blake would allow me play with them but after 2 minutes I would become forgotten and the two of them would start laughing about something she says that I don't find funny at all. They sit together during lunch, sit together in class, read together, they even walk home together. Sometimes I think she knows that I like him because when she notices that I'm watching them she winks at me. At first I did not understand why she always winks but later It occurred to me.
After many attempts of trying to get my close friend back I gave up on him. I would sit far away from them and watch them play and laugh remembering when that used to be me. I used to be the first to hear any song that he tries to compose even if the lyrics are sometimes stupid, we would just laugh about it( i really miss hearing his voice), when he comes visiting we would lay on the grass in my garden under the hot sun holding hands trying to find different shapes and forms in the sky, we used to be very close. I miss him.Later I started loosing my friends one by one for a reason i still don't know and became lonely. Once in a while Blake would walk up to me with a smile on his face to say hi and when I try to start up a conversation with him she would come and take him with one excuse or the other. I started becoming invincible in my class. Which I hated but i never did anything to stop it.
My sister,Avalon Smith, was the opposite of me. She was beautiful, smart, and kind. She was very social and popular in the school. She would participate in every ceremony we have in school. She is either dancing or singing and most of the times she was the one leading. During prize giving day she is always having at least two prizes to take home. My parents were very proud of her and I also was. I knew she was their favourite even if they never said it but I couldn't care less.
During dinner Avalon said that she wanted to change her school because she thought that her school was becoming boring. Knowing my parents i was expecting them to say no that her excuse was not reasonable enough but to my surprise they accepted saying that they would help her look for a more interesting school, a school with more Sporting facilities, well I guess I don't know my parents they much. When she made the announcement and they agreed to it, I saw it as an opportunity to escape from that hell of a school, so I also said that I wanted to change my school also giving them reasons as stupid as Avalon's reason and they had no other choice then to accept.
I was so excited about my new school. I wonder what it would be like there? I slept that night dreaming about my mysterious new school.
