Dark Cloud

There's a darkness that consumes me. It's like a dark cloud hovering over my head. It needs to rain, but it never does; it just lingers there as my heart grows heavier each day. It's like a lump in my chest that causes shortness of breath. Why won't it just rain? Why won't this dark cloud that lingers over me let me be? Is this the reason I can't find happiness? I smile like the sun shines when, in reality, my heart is dark everyday. My eyes don't flicker like they used to- they hide. I never try anymore. I'm fine with being average. I'm okay with being alone- that way, no one can know the pain I've been feeling these past few months. Dark cloud, why won't you just rain instead of holding me back? Holding me back from happiness...I try not to let your lingering take control, but how could I if you keep nagging me? Just rain so I don't feel your darkness over me anymore..

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