Okay so it's been confirmed that Hiddleswift broke up . I'm crushed. Ive been crying all day over a relationship that's not even mine .
I can't do this anymore , from now on I don't care who Taylor dates. It won't last . I can't get invested.
I can't help but feel so heartbroken for her though , all she wants is to be loved . Her life is just too crazy . She's always talked about wanting marriage and a ton of kids . Shes such a hopeless romantic , she falls hard .
At least I know Tom will be respectful. He's been amazing to her and we will get beautiful songs
Who knows what will happen in the future for them , they clearly loved each other. Their reps statnents left the door open fir the future. I just don't think the timing was right. Maybe things would've been different had there not been so much drama and controversy. Maybe they will get back together when things are not so crazy.
Tom is the kinda guy she needs, but he's not used to all the drama. He's never dealt with media negativity/ hate , the press has always loved Tom . Taylor has learned to tune out that stuff but he's never had to . It was all new to him, that was a lot to take . Maybe they needed some space to cool off.
We also have to remember that Taylor isn't really used having a good guy , like tom. In her experiences the nice guys turn out to be the worst. Just listen to superman.
I also belive Tom was a rebound for Tay , she didn't wait long enough after Calvin, she wasn't entirely over their relationship . She didn't give herself enough time to heal. She was confused by all the emotions she was feeling.
I hate that whole " maybe I'm the problem " thing , it's sexist and we all know she's dated some serious douche bags . She's also admitted to making mistakes in relationships.
However , I do think there is some underlying personal issues that Taylor needs to work on if she wants a relationship. I get the sense that there's definitely low self esteem, which could be rooted from her childhood insecurities. It's almost like she's afraid of being happy , or that she thinks she doesn't deserve it because of all she's gotten in life
. shes also admitted she has anxitey and is a worrier , i get the feeling it's worse than she admits to. I recognize some of the things she says as classic anxiety disorders.
I Have anxitey too, and it really does cloud all your thoughts. You can't think of anything else. It's constant second guessing and self doubt 24/7. It's awful. I've walked away from so many amazing opportunities because my anxiety got the better of me. Maybe that's what's happening with Taylor. I don't blame her if it is. This has been a hard year for her. I hope shes able to work through some of that . I don't like the thought of her In pain .
I've come to love Tom as well over the past few months , and I don't like the thought of Him hurting either . He's been so good to her. I wish them both the best. Although I'm praying that they work things out. They looked so happy.
I really want her to win in the romance department, because she deserves it.
On a different note ; I should've learned after tayvin not to get invested . Never ship actual relationships or real people unless they won't happen. As of now I ship , chair ( gossip girl), Ross and Rachel (friends), frillian (witches of east end ) taco, sweeran,
It's hard if not impossible ,to not get emotionally invested in a relationship if you write fanfics
I want to continue writing Taylor fanfics but I get too attached , if anyone has any suggestions for an otp that will never happen, please comment.
Anyway I ship Taylor with happiness.
That's all I want , for her to be happy
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Hiddleswift AF
FanfictionI officially ship hiddleswift, they are adorable . And seem to have a lot in common. This story is going to be one shots , drabbles, and prompts. I I'm taking requests too! I'm sorry if I don't update frequently , university is kicking my as...