I was Four years old when i had gotten my first friends.
their name's are aki, miki, kimi and atiko.
you may not know but these represent my emotions. aki equals anger. when i get teased or bully, i get pushed to my limits. Aki was like my big brother who i never had, he would take control and take control of my own fist and words. i wasn't a bad child, but i get treated like one. what would you do if you had nobody to teach you everything? Lost. that's what happens and i know from experience. as a child, i would always get bullied for my weight and appearance. have i ever gotten a compliment? no, never, not even from my parent's who would've been happier with a boy to stand by their side to do work. even if i am a girl, i still get treated like my opposite gender. i hated boys. i'm not lesbian but i preferred girls, they always made me better and were too kind to say anything. i still remembered when it all fell, my first crush was who brought me out of the corner and showed me that not everybody can be cruel.
That was how aki was made, but as well as atiko.
Atiko is anxiety, so imangine how wild he would go when i got near my dream boy. instantly drop down and try thinking on how he could fix my chances on getting a boy. i'm pretty sure you know what happens, but in case you don't know... I turn into a stuttering mess, who can't make any eye contact with anyone.
But honestly..
Who cares?
Nobody does.
And that is why we have miki.
To me, I made my friend miki younger because that's when it all started. She is quite small and quiet but she also makes me feel less alone. She's the one who grabs my hand with the blade and tries pushing it away from my arm, but sadly she is merely a little girl who is fighting an adolescent. So i will always win. Miki represents depression, something i have dealt with my whole life. I'm slowly recovering and getting there, ever so slowly. She watches over me when i sleep, Letting me dream of what i wanted to be. What i wanted to do! But, not all stories end in happy endings.
And last but not least, kimi.
Kimi was my last hope of happiness, She will try and make me smile or at least help me pull the edges of my lips up in a fake smile.
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The morning's shadow
Non-Fictionin this tale, i would explain what i had dealt with in my past. a few known about it and how i'm depressed because of it, im sensitive but not that sensitive.
