Behind This Happy Face (Kian Lawley Fan Fiction)

Hello, I'm Savannah Montano. Yes, lots may know me as the tumblr model that everyone knows about. Well, I'm less then just a tumblr model. I don't really know why people call me perfect or say "I wish I was you." they honestly dont. I'm in my senior year, 18 years old, I have long light brown hair and brown eyes. I'm fairly skinny because I workout and I'm not the most popular kid at school, which lots of people on tumblr would doubt.

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Savannah's point of view:

*BEEP BEEP BEEP* my alarm went off.

It was 6:45 and time for me to get ready for school ugh. I hit my alarm for it to stop and get up and walk to my bathroom. I look in the mirror and just sigh. I really dont wanna go to school. I brush my teeth and decide to wear a batman tee with a sweatshirt that says "****** High School Volleyball." and some blue jean shorts and black converse.

AN: I didnt know which high school to put so i just put dots lol.

I walk downstairs and am greeted by my mom. "Hey honey good morning!"

"Morning mom." i say blandly and kiss her on the cheek. I go towards my kitchen and just grab an apple to eat.

I finish my apple and then go to the bathroom, and i hit my wrist on the door nob. "fuck." i say. It hurt so god damn much. It stings. I look down and just look at my cuts... yes my cuts.

Lots of people don't know this.. actually nobody in the world does. I cut, yes but not because its a trend that is spreaded around the whole fucking society.. I cut because I have reasons. In the beginning of the year I had a boyfriend, Jarad. He ment the world to me, my tumblr fans shipped us as "Javannah." it was so cute. I was with Jarad and we had our ups and downs. I loved him, and usually when people love eachother they give eachother favors.. its normal. One day Jarad asked for nudes of me, I thought it was okay and that I was fine. But nope I was wrong. Jarad was so fucking crule and stupid and decided to send the pics of me to his best friend Steven. That one sent message changed my life dramatically. The pic of me naked was all over tumblr of people saying "Wow look at this fucking slut you guys call your role model." or "I can't believe I looked up to this thing." My follows started to decrease by hundreds everyday and then by thousands. I got messages saying "Your a slut." or "Kill yourself." I would be lying if I said I never came across suicide. School life was even worse, after the big incident, I got negative reactions. I would walk up to my best friends and they'd either ignore me or say they dont hangout with sluts. When they shouldn't be talking... they probably sucked half of the varsity football team's dicks. I had people coming up to me during class and lunch saying im a slut or im worthless and that i should just give up because everyone already hates me. The only thing I thought that would solve this problem is inflicting pain on my body.... so i did. Its like a drug to me. After this... my whole life has turned into a big joke... I'm a big joke. But it doesn't make me a slut! Me and Jarad loved eachother! or at least i loved him.... but you get my point. I just hate life. Hate everything about it. I wanna... I wanna die...

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After looking at myself in the bathroom, I walked out and it was time for me to face another day of regrets. the hell hole. school. It took about 10 minutes to get there and I walked in front of the school.

I took a big breathe "here we go." i say sadly.

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Heyyy guys. I hope you liked it so far, I'm really excited to continue it. Also the nudes part is 100% untrue, i just came up with it. If you don't know who Savannah Montano is... look her up shes gorgeous. Oh and don't worry.. Kian is coming soon ;)

Bye Guys!