Behind This Happy Face (Kian Lawley Fan Fiction)

Why Was I Born? (Chapter 4)

{Author's Note:} By the way guys, I'm no writer nor do i want a career in it. It's all in good fun. Also I have nothing against Andrea and Lindsay, I love them both but I just chose them because I feel like they can be the mean girls, but like for acting you know what I mean? Back to the story..

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Savannah's POV:

I walk home with my head tilted down crying my eyes out. My eye fucking stinged so much. I touched my lip and felt a liquid type of feeling, I was bleeding. I get home and my parents are already asleep. I quietly walk up to my room and walk into my bathroom. I burst out crying immediatly. I look in the mirror to see that Lindsay gave me a black eye, my lip is bloody, and my arms have marks from when Andrea pulled me back. Great. How am I suppose to keep this a secret from my mom? I look at myself.

Why was I born?

Why does this happen to me?

Why does everyone hate me?

Why don't I just kill myself already?

Those questions run through my mind the whole time looking at my reflection. Why don't I just do it? Why don't I just cut my wrist and slit my vein. Why can't I chung those pills down and be done with everything? I know why.... I don't wanna let my parents down... They'd be horrified.

I took a shower and put on my pajamas and quickly drifted off to sleep.

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{Monday Morning}

I wake up with the sun on my face. I get up off my bed and suddenly feel really sore. I bet I'm still sore from getting beat up. I walk into my bathroom and see a picture of me and Kian on my mirror. I was a polaroid. God I miss him. I haven't talked to him since the party and I've missed him horribly. He was the only one who cared. Cared for me. I get ready in a Beatles tee, with some blue jean shorts, and white vans. I use a shit load of makeup to cover up my black eye but it barely works, so i part my hair over it. And I walk downstairs.

"Goodmorning Sav!" My mom said cheerly.

"Hey." I said

"Hey? That's all I get?" My mom asks.

"Yeah." I reply.

"Why is your hair all over your face" My mom asks. Shit. I hope she doesn't see my black eye.

"Just wanted to, I'm gonna go." I walk out my door and my mom said something but I ignored her. On my way to school, I pass by Kian's I wanna knock on his door so bad and say sorry for going off on him. Oh I want to so bad. But I bet he doesn't want anything to do with me.

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I walk into the gates of my school (hell) and I see so many people have their eyes glued on me.

"Lindsay fucked her up!" someone said.

"Did you hear what happened on saturday?"

"She's so pathetic."

That's all people were saying. I am pathetic honestly. But I walk into 1st period and I of course have to face satan. I walk past lindsay's desk and all I do is hear her snicker. I don't want to say anything, I dont want trouble. Why would I wanna suffer more?

My table partner next to me was a little freshman. He's really smart so he is in our advanced class, physics. He doesn't talk much but he's the only one who talks to me.

"Hey will." I say.

"Whats up?" He replies back.

"Wanting to be home haha sleeping." I say back. He replies with a nod. He's never really comfortable in a class full of seniors and juniors.