Nobody Compares » ELOUNOR

[ fifty-two ]

a/n:  short update. make sure you have read the previous chapter before this. x

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"Do you want to break up?"

       Those six words.

       I can't believe this is happening.

       I don't want to hurt her. It's not my intention.

       My chest starts to get heavy as she stares at me like I had put hell right in front of her. I tried to hold her but she brush me away. She tried to stop her tears but it's too late.

"El--" I tried to move towards her but she never let me.

"No!" She screams. "I knew it!" She pressed her hand on her forehead like she's recalling everything in her mind. "I should've listen to people, to my head! I knew that you are just like him! I can't believe I let myself fell in your traps!" she keeps yelling as she tries wiping her tears away and all I could feel right now is hurt and anger. "You're a ma--"

"Eleanor!" I shout at her, holding her still. Her eyes shut open in surprise and, again, tears fall.

"No! You are him! You are Luke! Same as him! Same like hi--"

"Eleanor, stop!" I shook her again. "I am not breaking up with you!" I tried to be calm but I don't know if I still sounds like calm. "There's no way I'm breaking up with you. I love you. And I am not him! I will never be him, neither to be just like him, cause I'm not and I will never be. You know that. You know me." My head dropped facing the floor. "I thought you do." I let go of my hold on her arms and back away. "I thought I had pleased you all this time that I am not him. How are we able to work this relationship out, if you keep comparing me and holding everything about your past?" I look up at her eyes. "Tell me, El, how?"

"I saw you with--" her voice is shaking and I know just what she'll say.

"I know you saw me with a girl. And I am so wrong for not asking you what's up. We've been drinking and I saw you with a guy too. I know you did it in return of what you saw but I hadn't realized it 'til Zayn talked to me. I almost lost my mind after seeing you with that guy." I almost chuckle to myself, remembering how I felt that night. "But El, I didn't want that girl. I didn't and I won't. I have you."

"You were holding her, Lou." she tried not to show her emotions in her voice.

"The only moment that I touch her is when I push her away from me." I extend my arm so I could reach her face and wipe her tears. "I know you have trust issues, El. But I thought I had made you trust me more than anyone else." I put my arm down to my side before I turn around to walk away.

Three.

Two.

One.

      I felt cold arms wrapped around me from the back. She started sobbing hard as she buried her face on my shoulder.

"Please don't go. Don't leave." she cried. I hold her hands to remove it off me. "No. Please." She hugs me tighter while shaking her head no.

"El." I whispered.

      Her cold arms slowly loosing grip around me. I turn to face her and held her hands. Her eyes are puffing red from crying and her face is wet because of tears.

      I look straight into her eyes — hopeful eyes. And I know for myself that this is final and I've known it right fron the start of this relationship. I say,

"No one's leaving, El. No one will let go. Never."