Sweet Seduction (mindless behavior)

Envy

Pour up (drank)

Headshot (drank)

Sit down (drank)

Stand up (drank)

Pass out (drank)

Wake up (drank)

Faded (drank)

Faded (drank)

Kendrick Lamar- Swimming Pools

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YN POV

Here I am again in this same position. I feel so terrible and guilty for doing this. He comes here every weekend and does this and I never stop him either thats the crazy thing about it.

"Jacob" I said slowly catching my breath from what we just got done doing.

"Mmm" He said half asleep. Aww he looks so adorable with his soft curly hair to his sparking eyes and his soft plump lips that I could just kiss forever but sadly he's taken.

"I think you should get going before your wife notice that your gone" I said shifting my position in my queen sized bed. I snuggle underneath my silky red velvet covers because I was getting cold considering the fact that im naked.

"What time is it?" He said with his tired voice that I find very sexy. He sat up on the bed facing away from me.

I glance at my alarm clock. "itssss....2:37 am" I said while waiting for his reaction.

"fuck....um okay im finna head out" He ruffled through his sweaty curls and slowly got out of the bed and started putting on his clothes tiredly. I sat and watched him intensely because he just looked so sexy the way he pulled up his pants over his crotch.

I guess he saw me staring at him because he gave me that "the fuck you lookin at" face. I quickly looked away but I would glance at him every now and then. When he was finished he came over by me and gave me a kiss on the cheek.

"See you later...alright" I guess he was waiting on me to say something back.

"Um...yea..sure" I said deep in my thoughts. I was thinking about everything but let me explain for the people who dont get it. Jacob is my fuck buddy which means he only comes here to fuck me and thats it. We cant catch no feelings with each other either. The reason Jacob comes here is because his wife cant pleasure him to his satisfaction so he comes here and let me satisfy him. I remember when he told me that I was only person to satisfy him and that i had a gift from god. I didnt know if that was a compliment or a insult but I took it as a insult. I cry so much because I never knew what it feels like to be in a real relationship and to be truly loved. Every relationship I was in was only for my body or some prize to show off to there friends. Jacob loves his wife so much and he always tells me how he wants to start a family with her. I get so jealous because I really like him but I dont deserve him because im nothing but a home wrecker. People use to call me every name in the book hoe was the main one but they called me tramp, slut, thot, sperm dumpster, thirsty and everything else you would say to your worst enemy.

I was so caught up in my thoughts that I havent even realized that Jacob had left already. I decided to get up and go take a shower. When I was walking pass the hallway I stopped and looked in the full body mirror. My hair was destroyed and I had red hand prints on my waist and I had bags under my eyes overall I looked terrible. I went in the bathroom and took me a long hot shower. I also washed my hair while I was at it. I got out of the steamy bathroom with steam sticking to my wet skin. I dried myself off and lotioned myself up. I put on a big T-shirt with winnie the pooh on it and some grey booty shorts. I brushed my hair in a big curly/bushy bun and tied it down with a scarf. I decided to let my hair air dry. I brushed my teeth and went to sleep in the guess room. I didnt feel like changing the sheets in my room. I finally fell into a deep slumber.