Love Letter:
September 2, 2016
1:46 am
Dear G,
Uh... I dark doo wop da do doo da do don't know how to start. Well, first of all i would like to say.. Pirena, this world's gonna burn, burn, burn, burn. But as long as we're going down, baby you should stick around, okay? The earth breaks (I'll break Danaya), it fall and set your beat. I'd find myself swallowed (I'll let the wind swallow Amihan), drowning (I'll drown Alena) in your heat, my Pirena.
I admit that at times i feel that you may contain the urge to run away, but i promise to hold you down with soggy clothes and breezeblocks. There are even days when i need you the most but all i can say is... Where are you now that i need you? But i dont care cause i know sh** like break ups and misunderstandings happen, so im holding on to all the pieces of my heart's debris till it's time.
I'll pull it together and fix myself eventually cause i know it's mine, i know youre mine. I even found gold in the wreckage then put it on a necklace, i'll wear it like a message so i wont forget it. I'll be keeping it cause i know that its mine no matter what i do. There are even days when we get confused about our relationship, but i know deep in our hearts we still pray for sons and daughters.
All my life, ive been fighting a war, all by myself. I was too weak, until i found my own bravado, i found "you" my lovely bravado. I used to drink too much cause i know party girls dont get hurt, so i go on 1, 2, 3, 1, 2, 3 drink then.. I swing from the chandelier and live like tomorrow doesnt exist. How i wish that money just grow from trees (though it does cause money is just a paper and paper comes from trees haha anyways...) cause if that's the case i'll plant more trees to have more money and i'll call them money trees haha. Cause i wanna save money and marry you someday babe, i really do cause im crazy in love with you.
I would like to apologize for all those times that i made you cry a river, i made you confused and hurt cause of my little superstitions that aren't legit. Ho hey, im kinda running out of words to say, it's just so hard to concentrate rn. It's funny how i stood up at that Stadium (Arcadium) with you during your concert, my knees were freakin' trembling. It's as if i was a Southern Girl who's a first timer at North. (Lol, just kidding)
I thought to myself... If we arent meant to be this time, maybe in another life, maybe in another love story. Yknow, i want us to be free and happy, like how normal couples are? Stuff like we play video games or eat Japanese food together. (but not with the Japanese Boy, haha) we'll go on a warm jacuzzi together, warm water touching our skin. Well, are those things still possible? I guess not, cause lots of people think that we are misfits.
I want time to move faster when im not with you, but i want it to move slower when we're together. I miss spending summer with you, youre hella sexy with your two piece on and ohhhh... not to mention your summer skin that's shimmering. Watta sight. Haha. Then we'll lay peacefully on our bed while playing the song Marvin's Room by one of my favourite artists, Drake. I have a lot in mind rn, like can we just runaway? Im tired of pretending that we have no more "I love yous" cause we still freakin' do! If only im given the chance to be a pet, id be a dog like Ted and Kenshin so that i can bury my dirty paws on their faces for them to see and feel how mad i am at them for keeping us apart.
Anyways, do you remember that night when i asked you to turn off the light? You got scared, "not tonight babe." you said with a frightened look in your eyes, that was pretty funny cause i wasn't gonna do anything. Haha. Then i played Charlie Brown by coldplay "and let's both stay high." I told you. Day N nite, let's stay in each other's arms. Let's not think about our problems, besides they're all just mind over matter. No diggity baby, but i used to be the Princess of China (cause "he" is a Chinese, sorry to mention) but now pour it up babe cause im hella done with it, im no longer a little princess nor just a woman, im more than just a woman, cause im a woman in love with a woman. Youre Pirena the protector of fire while im the Queen Elsa. Put us together and we'd be like a Snow on the Sahara... Opposite and contradicting but Adia (whoever she is haha) knows how much im willing to take the risk for you.
