Here we go again..

Everett.

That one boy had the power to drive Clare insane.

With that blond hair and crystal clear blue orbs how could you not love him

He was the best and the sweetest

And did I mention it's just about the smartest kid ever? And athletic

Really who didn't love him?

Because only every girl at school did and he knew everyone did but he never thought his best friend Clare did

But she had always known she had

She had known she loved him since the day they met in first grade.

•flashback in Clare's pov•

First days were always easy but thinking back to first grade it had really changed her life. Everett was in her class, as a little girl she had the biggest crush on him

But of course decided they needed to become friends if she ever stood a chance.

"Hi" I had said.

"Umm hi, who are you" he said.

"I-I'm Clare" I couldn't believe I had stuttered that day and I still can't believe I did

"Let's be best friends" he said in a hurry

But hey it was cool with me

That day in first grade I knew he could be the only one for me.

•PRESENT DAY-CLARES POV•

"Mom I've gotta go get Everett for school, bye!"

"Bye hon, have fun!"

"Not likely" I muttered

But I was excited for my first day of 10th grade, and picking up Everett

We had been best friends forever but we had had some hard times and he has never known how I feel about him, if only he could

This summer for the longest time Everett wouldn't talk to me and it Killed me.

It was just a small rough patch he was angry because I had been driving the car that had crashed we me, him, and our friends Cara and Matt.

Matt hadn't made it...

Of course I blamed myself, why wouldn't I? I was driving!

But Everett had done more than blame me he hated me for it.

No matter how much I tried to convince him I knew I shouldn't have been doing what I was (drinking and driving) he wouldn't stop screaming

Close to the end of summer Cara had what she called an intervention. Cara was my best friend other than Everett so of course she was trying to help

I knew they was probably no hope but I wanted to try

At first it was no help at all with everyone around telling him

"It's gonna be ok" when we knew it was ok that our friend his BESTFRIEND had died because my stupidity,

But finally I got him alone

To talk

Explain

Anything to get him back

And finally it had worked, we worked through it and had become the best of friends

The relief that washed over me was unreal and now going back to school for our sophomore year maybe everything could be great, just maybe.

Chapter 2