The Road We Took

Chapter 18-It's Yours

Chase POV

I feel tired. Emotionally and physically. My bones ache and my heart keeps compressing itself. It hurts. Why does it hurt? Why am I tired? Did something happen?

I...I can't remember. What can't I remember? I know I'm forgetting something, but I can't remember. Was it important? Was it crucial? Why did I forget? What made me forget? What am I feeling? Is it someone's touch?.......Am I hearing someone's voice? What are they saying? Are they saying it to me? Who are they? Do they know what happened to me? Do they know what I'm forgetting? 

"Wake.......please.....up......I.........you.........please.......wake" Wake? Am I sleeping? 

Where's the touch?! There's no touch anymore. I feel cold. There was a warmth from the touch, now it's gone. Where am I? Why can't I see? Have I gone blind? What happened? Where am I? 

"Chase, please. Wake up. I want to hear your voice and see your eyes. I want to feel your touch, just as you're feeling mine. Please baby, open your eyes." It stopped. My heart..it stopped hurting. 

"I promise I'll take care of you. I promise I'll protect you. I promise to love and cherish you in my heart. I promise to never leave your side, and to be there for you when you need and want me to be. I promise to do all of this Chase, my beautiful Pup, but please, open your eyes. Bring back the light that has been stolen from my life. Please, bring me back to life." My dear Adam, I wish I could. I wish I could escape this darkness that surrounds me. I wish I could satisfy this yearning I feel for you. If only I could. But alas, the world is a cruel place. It gives and takes away. It is not forgiving nor merciful.

I don't know if I will ever be able to open my eyes again, or if I will be able to tell you I love you once more. I regret not telling you about our child. They didn't do wrong, yet life was cruel to them. If I ever make it out of this haunting darkness, I'll birth your child and give it love. They will never know the meaning of being unloved. They will never know the abuse caused by a parent, nor the sting of a palm in hatred. They will never be afraid of the judgment of their parent. Neither will they fear to express their love for their lover. 

But if I never make it out of this nightmare, then please forgive me. Forgive me for making you fall in love with me only to lose me. Forgive me for not telling you about the being inside me. Forgive me for breaking your heart. And, please, take care of Marco for me. I may not have been yours for long, but I love you both so much. It pains me to think that I may lose the three most important things in my life because of my mistake. So please, make sure Marco is safe. 

I love you Adam Jacoby. I love you Marco Sertz. 

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Adam POV 

I saw Chase's chest heave a big sigh then slowly fall back. Oh my God. No. No! NO! He can't be dead!! NOO!! I don't believe it!!!! He can't leave me!!!! Not after he was finally mine, NO!!

I put my fingers over his pulse point on his neck and waited.......and waited.......and waited......*sigh*. He has a pulse. I stayed there, hours probably, with my fingers on his pulse point, counting how many beats per minute. 

Slowly but surely Chase was regaining his strength. All that was needed now was for him to wake up. 

The thought of him dying was mortifying. I didn't last 10 minutes away from him after I had gone downstairs. I was scared something else was going to happen to him. He shouldn't be alone at such a time. I'll be right next to him through all of this. A yawn brought me out of my thoughts. I should probably sleep now so that I can take better care of him when he wakes up. 

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Hmm I like that feeling. It's nice. I wonder who's doing it. Meh, doesn't matter as long as they don't stop. It feels like waves are going back and forth on my head, with the nails scraping my scalp every once in a while. I wonder if Chase woke up............CHASE!!!!!!!

I hurriedly shot up from my position and tried to gain control of my eyes as they kept trying to adjust to the sudden change. Chase.....HE'S AWAKE. Without putting much thought into it I crushed him into a hug, only to retreat when he gave a pain filled moan. 

"Are you alright? How are you feeling? Do you need to go to the hospital? I can go get the ca-" his lips are so soft. I would think that after almost being dead his lips would be chapped. But that's not the case. They're soft and plump and nice and amazing and I just want more of him. My hands found the nape of his neck, my fingers gently grasping the loose strands. Unfortunately, the kiss ended all too quickly. 

"What was that for?"

"I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you. You don't know how much I love you." he was exasperated, his arms were tight around my shoulders. I didn't mind it one bit. We stayed like that for a while. It could've been seconds, minutes, hours. It didn't matter. What mattered was the fact that Chase was alive and awake. 

"Would you like to tell me why I found you almost dead on your porch?" he tensed at the mention of the situation. He slowly laid back down, with my help of course, and subconsciously, I think, his hand went to his stomach. 

"My mom beat me" WHAT???!!!! His MOTHER?

"Why did she beat you Pup?" no answer, just..silence.

"Chase, I need to know why she beat you." his eyes started watering and his hand started rubbing circles on his stomach, but he finally gave me an answer; an unexpected one at that.

"I-I'm pregnant. It's yours" I didn't know if I should've been happy or worried. Happy because one of my pretties was pregnant with my child. Worried because his mother had beat him when he was pregnant. SHE COULD'VE KILLED MY CHILD! THAT BITCH!!!!! 

I put my hand over his and my forehead on his stomach. Now that I looked closely at it the baby bump was obvious. He's with child. He has my child inside him. I'm so happy. All worries went out the window when I felt movement on my forehead. It was moving. My child was moving. 

"I'll raise it" Chase looked down at me with shock prominent on his face. 

"You want to keep it?" WHAT??!! Was he going to abort it?!

"Don't you?!!!" his face morphed into one of determination.

"Of course I do!!! I just thought that, since we're so young, you wouldn't have wanted the baby"

"Then it's settled, we'll keep the baby. I'll take care of them and you. I'm so happy. I can't wait to tell Marco" I hadn't told Marco about Chase's situation. It would break his heart if Chase ever died. Now I don't have to tell him bad news; I'll tell him amazing news. 

"She also kicked me out of the house" THAT BITCH IS JUST ASKING FOR ME TO GO OVER TO HER HOUSE AND BEAT HER DEAD!!!

"You're staying here then. No objections"

"But what will your parents think?"

"We'll cross that bridge when we get to it. For now, you need to rest and regain your energy; so back to bed you go" I gave him a little peck on his forehead and tucked him in bed before going downstairs to make him something to eat. He must be starving with a child in his belly. 

I'm going to be a father........I'm going to have kids.......they're going to be Chase's and I's kids. I stopped in the middle of the kitchen for two seconds before breaking out in a happy dance filled with laughs and tears. 

I'M GOING TO BE A FATHER!!!!!!!!!!!!