Depression

No help

My teacher asked me a few questions 

I answered the questions incorrectly

Now everyone is laughing at me 

I feel the tears crawl up my throat 

I feel the tears flood my vision

it is happening again

I ask to go to the restroom 

My teacher lets me go

I run out of the classroom 

I go past the restroom

Run into my closet 

Lock the door so no one finds me

Curl up into a ball 

Start to cry 

Now start to sob

I hear a familiar voice outside the closet

I get quiet and listen 

It is HIM 

But who is with him

It is my best friend

What are they talking about

They are talking about a date they went in 

She knows I dated him once

She knows that I hate him

But she went behind my back

She was the only one I truly trusted

Now I have no one

I curl back up 

Start sobbing again

I reach for my pocket 

I pull out the blade

I pull up my sleeve 

There are a million scars on my arm

I add a few more

The feeling too familiar 

Too relaxing

I lay back 

Stop sobbing 

Hold my bleeding arm out

Wait until the bleeding slows down

Put the blade away 

Wipe my face off 

Pull my sleeve down 

Go to the restroom 

Try to fix myself up

Go back to class

No one notices me

School ends

I tell the people I care for I love them 

Tell crushes I love them 

Tell my best friend I forgive her 

Go home write a long note fixing everything I messed up

And then I do it 

I end my misery forever

It only took one deep slice on each wrist

I start by thinking of everything I loved in this world

At the end I say goodbye to everything 

Then I run out of blood to loose 

I die