Love of 4893 Miles Inbetween

From The Beginning To The End To The Beginning Again(autodesctruction/rebirth)

We got back together. Out of sudden as I can remember she needed me to stay with her and she felt bad when she broke me up .I didn't really comprehend that decision , yet thanks to it ,she handed us the future.

Spoiler Alert : We've broken up more than 10 times in 12 months. Oh and we got back together every single time in less than 24 hours except than the first time when we spent 3 days apart.

Thus counting since November , Dec/Jan/Feb passed . Our relationship was in a weird situation .By my side,I didn't really know what I was doing,it was different,so I just kept me close to her. From her side instead,she was trusting me more and more. She hasn't trusted many people. Not in the rate that I reached at least,except than her family apparently .I didn't really realize it though and that's just terrible from me .Like that,I couldn't bring any appreciation against it. At least I realized that we both felt something for each other.

By the time it was spring anymore , things calmed down. The last months we had broken up many times . It was irritating because of its instability <break up - be together again> . Reasonably she had accomplished most of the break ups which I comprehended why,months later in the summer. It's not exactly about disability to do it. Disability to be a couple.  My Jen was just too weak to remain in a relationship. What matches me with her, are her gifts against my flaws and her weaknesses against my affection. Whether I don't conform with her we'll fall apart .If I don't support her when she is in need to,she'll collapse. In both ways I am the one who needs to take more responsibility to treat her right. That's exactly the reason why she was breaking me up. I wasn't "running" regularly so that everything would be alright. I was just being a cunt in other words.

I don't remember when the break up tale ends at,April I'd almost surely say. Regarding her side of doing what she thinks is right ,I'm pretty sure she was very very very confused .