We Go Together Or We Don't Go Down At All

Chapter 6

"Hey." He smiles shyly. I think he noticed the look in my eyes because his smile slowly faded.

"What's wrong baby?" He asks.

"I need to tell you something babe." I look down and he pulls my chin up so I'm looking at him again.

"Alison, you know you can tell me anything." He nods.

I step back so he can see my hips but he keeps his eyes locked on mine.

"Vic. Look down."

He caught on and immediately looked at my hips and upper thighs.

He just stood there staring. He dropped to his knees and pulled me closer. I didn't notice I was crying until I gasped for breath. He placed a gentle kiss on each of my hip bones and continued kissing down to my thighs kissing each and every scar.

I felt like I couldn't hold myself up any longer so I slid down the shower wall until I was on the floor of the shower.

Vic wrapped his arms around me and pulled me onto his lap. I covered my face with my hands because I did not want Vic to see me crying. He placed a sweet and passionate kiss on my forehead.

I looked up at him and noticed he was crying too.

"Why?" He asked quietly.

"I hated myself." I replied bleakly.

"Baby no. You don't need to do this. You are so beautiful and you mean the world to me. You will never know how much you matter to me." Vic turns his arms over and shows me the scars on his wrists. Even more tears just pore from my eyes. "Baby I know what you're feeling. I understand what you're going through and you have to trust me, it really does get better."

"Vic I'm disgusting. I hate everything about myself and every single time I catch a glance of myself in a mirror or I see a picture of myself I absolutely hate it. I can't stand seeing myself and I fucking hate it. I hate it." I begin crying even harder.

"Baby please. Promise me that you won't hurt yourself. I will do everything I possibly can to make you love yourself. I want you to feel beautiful because you truly are and I won't stop until you realize that. I love you and you are my everything." He pleads.

"I'm trying to get better I really am. I just hate who I am so much."

"Let me help you. I'll help you get better. We can do this together. I'll fight for you and I won't stop until you know how much you matter."

I couldn't find the strength to speak so I just nodded.

"I love you Alison."

"I love you too Vic."

"See you're just wasted and thinkin' 'bout the past again. Darlin' you'll be okay." He sings.