Things Not Seen Are Felt

Chapter 9: Missing You

Please be home. Please be safe. I kept on chanting as I ran to Yama-chan's house.  My legs are really aching and I'm still far away; but I couldn't give up. Yama-chan needs someone right now. He feels much more broken than I do.

Unfortunately, as stupid as this may sound, I stepped on my own shoe lace and landed face first on the pavement. Damn it hurt! I think my chin, elbows, palms and knees are full of bruised or scrapped skin. The pain didn't matter though. Yama-chan is still my top priority.

I don't want to think of the worst possible scenario I might run into when I get there but I just can't help it. I don't want him to go into a state of depression or blame himself and much worse, I don't want him to take his life as well. I gotta hurry before any of those things happen.

"Yama-chan! Open the door."  I banged on it hard. My palms were already bleeding and it stings but I can't let him get through this alone.

"Yama-chan! Please open the door." Again and again, I would bang on the door or check the windows of any sign of him but the lights were off so I couldn't see anything inside. I was desprate that I tried opening the windows but they were all locked shut.

I sat down on the steps of their front porch and sighed. My body is tired but my mind is still running a marathon. Different situations are popping in my mind and to tell you honestly most of them aren't the good kinds.

After a while, I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket so I took it out.

FROM: MOM

Yuto, it's already late. where are you?

I stared at the screen for a while and thought if I would stay here or go home and come back tomorrow.

TO: MOM

Sorry I forgot to tell you mom. I'm gonna spend the night here at Ryosuke's. He asked me help on something. Be back tomorrow morning to change clothes. Love you!

Hey, it's not the first time I lied to my parents. I mean every child has. After I got an okay from mom, I stood up and resumed on finding ways to enter the house. I looked for a ladder, there was none. I looked for a spare key, there was none. I called out for his name again, no one answered.

It was already 11pm and I'm still outside his house. My eyelids were starting to fall and I know there are bags under them now.

"Yama-chan. Please open the door." I rested my head on the door and knocked again. For five hours I've been trying to reach him, nothing was working. I ended up sitting on the stairs of the front portch. After a while, my lids dropped and I ended up sleeping there. I'm gonna get neck pain tomorrow when I wake up.

I heard the door open. Ryosuke came out, all dressed for school. From my spot, I abruptly stood up and my neck snap! I hissed in pain as I tried to soothe it. 

"Yama-chan!" I gave out a smile but he didn't take a glance at me. He looked dead, lifeless; like his soul was sucked out of him. My smile fell as my heart broke into a thousand pieces. He was crying all night. I could tell from the red and swollen rims of his eyes plus he didn't even sleep basing on the dark circles.

"Yama-chan." I pulled him by the shoulder but he pulled away. Yama-chan stopped for a while and I was waiting for him to turn back to me. I was getting my speech ready and my face as well in case I would get slapped which I think there's a 50% chance of that happening.

"Yama-chan?" he didn't turn around. He's just standing their with his back facing me. It scares me that he's like this. The silence is a snake strangling the life out of me, making it hard to breath, sucking out my life souce, killing me slowly. It's torture.