I dreamt of you, yet again.
Every night they seem more and more real.
This time it was just us.
Us against the world as they say.
We were more in love then ever.
We did everything for each other.
I was happy.
And then I woke up.
Reality hit me.
I haven't been happy in the longest time.
It's tough I guess.
Trying to my positive in a negative society.
But I try.
I try so hard.
And all it leaves me is more tired then how I started.
I'm exhausted.
The simplest things tired me out.
Take so much energy from me.
Like getting a cup of water.
Or getting a bottle from the fridge.
Or even just getting a bottle from my nightstand.
I don't get why.
Sometimes I'm on a high and can run and talk for hours.
And other times I feel so helpless.
I guess that's what it's like to deal w anxiety and depression at the same time.