Goiânia, Goiás, December 28, 2013
I always imagined what I would say if I had the opportunity to come face to face with you. Well, here I am, thinking of a thousand things and none seems to me good enough to tell you. Homesickness is not right to describe what I feel and the pain hits me around December 28th word. I swear I say "I love you" would be very little to say how much I love you and will always love you. There are countless times that I cried watching "So Far Away" heard "A little piece of heaven", "Fiction", "Afterlife" and "Almost Easy". You're too special for me and since that sad December 2009 I think of you and mentally repeat: "Come back to me it's almost easy." I know it is not that easy and yes, impossible.
So my gorgeous design pole? How are you? Got a minute to listen to me? I need to talk with you, my favorite Giant. Jimmy. It's how I like to call you. The first song I heard was "Seize the day" there in 2007, I think. I was very young and Avenged Sevenfold was a discovery of life! I got to know the band slowly and gradually falling in love. That same year met "A little piece of heaven" and "Afterlife". Shortly after I discovered that such a James Owen Sullivan was one of the composers. I thought, "Fuck it, there is even a person with such talent?" And yes, there was, and you were my big guy.
Time passed and my hardcore / irrational love only increased. Always promised myself that the first coming of A7x to Brazil I would on the show. It is not given. Not given because I am a coward who is afraid to fight. I know you and for me it was also a courageous person. When I read about his life that I thought would be "like you." Having had your courage and your gift. To me, you are a godsend. Only. No one will ever like you. I remember that after a while I started to realize how much you're beautiful. Your face, your body and your heart. How often lost in the immensity of his blue eyes, the straight line of his nose, his tattoos, his hair ... everything. 've Lost count of romantic dreams I had with you. It's true, what can I do if you wake up this kind of feeling? I have no shame to say that you always wished you.
Then time passed and 2009 has arrived. I remember it was a beautiful, difficult and immensely sad year for me. You left me, left us. I think such a beautiful person like you should not have gone so soon. This horrible world made you suffer and pity me only imagine what you were feeling that day. Who knows what was best for you? But I'm sure for everyone on earth who love you, it was not. Not resign myself easy and you know why? Because life can be shit, but always has something so worthwhile is worth living. Death takes advantage of our weaknesses and do not even think that many people suffer when someone will. I remember I heard the news when I was visiting my best friend and he told me in a simple and direct way. I left and came crying on the bus all the way. I had never felt the pain of losing an idol and I confess, that one could never feel this. You not know how sad it is to look at your picture and know that in life, I will never have the opportunity to stare at their blue eyes. So beautiful and bright as diamonds in the sky. Maybe one day, wherever you are I can still hold you. And I just want to say I love you ... so much.
With love, Geovanna Antonelle
