I was born in a loving month. February 20th. Its near Valinties Day. Well here is a short summary about my life here we go: My mom is not the best mom, how do I put this she drinks a lot and use to abuse me whenever she drinks. Just last week in november my dad message me again and well the day of thanksgiving he went to jail again. I wasn't suppose to be born. I was a mistake.
I use to be bullied in middle school by this boy and some other people on the internet. I got older and now im 15. I self harm and I think I have depression. I wake feeling like shit. I cry everyday. I always try to be there for everyone. I want them to smile, and forget the pain they have.
I never really had a fatherly figure in my life he did somethings and left scares in my familes mind although tallking to him last week made me feel so uncomfortable it was the 1st time I ever spoke to him on the phone. He kept saying he missed me and cared about me well if you cared then "wheres the child support?"
I'm miserable. I one time got drunk with a buddy of mine to forget about all my problems with my boyfriend and well he ended up comforting my sorry ass later that night. I cried and I hated everything.
Him and I get in some physical fights like i bitch slapp him because I got hurt and he shuves me. Oh well we stopped. I think I have bipolar issues, like my mom and sister.
Oh yeah I have a sister but I ain't gonna say much about her well she was at the bottom and getting to the top so she's doin alright.
I'm trying to make myself shape up and get A's and B's in school instead of C's A's and B's.
My boyfriend and I fight alot. I usually cut myself from him. He always ask me why i'm still with him. I don't know really.
Eh but we have good days to.
Well what else I should say. I taken so much shit today for example saw my ex bff at the mall she looked at me and laughed and my boyfriend gave her the "eye" I'm glad he has my back when i get hurt by my friends. I mean my boyfriend is a good guy don't get me wrong he supports my ideas, my emotional drama, and school stuff.
Sorry I'm falling asleep But I'll next tell you guys about my trip to spain. Next time!
