Erejean~ I hate that I love you

Difficulties

Eren's p.o.v
"So you and Jean.. Are dating?" Connie asks me.
"Yeah so? Do you have a problem?" I reply.
"N-no, just wondering." Connie laughs awkwardly and sprints off. I'm getting ask this on a daily basis, I can't stand it already. I continue running laps, I'm already dying from it, since it's hot out. Could I really be in a relationship with Jean? I sigh and shake my head.
------ caution, there is some Yaoi in this chapter, but it's not as long.😋
I feel guilty but satisfied whenever I have sex with Jean. I know we can't keep this up, we both do. There was a moment where close, didn't feel close enough, where the saying 'I love you' didn't feel like it was enough, as me and Jean wanted more and more.

I moan with pleasure as Jean does a final thrust into me, letting a load out inside of me just as I let one out too. He then fell down on my chest, exhausted. "Dammit, we can't keep going like this.." He say, panting.

"I-I know. When do you want to break up?"

"Tomorrow?"

"I guess that sounds reasonable."

"But Eren.. I still love you.. I really do.. It going to hurt me."

"But if we keep up this fake relationship, it's going go be more heart-breaking then if we don't break up."

"I know.." He sighs. "Wanna go again?"

"Round two it is." I let out a soft chuckle.
He nods, deeply kisses me, then continues thrusting into me. He pulls away panting, "I love you.. Eren.." He mumbles. I hold him close, bite my lip and shiver, whimpering with a quiet moan. It feels good but it's wrong. We have to end this dead relationship.
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"So Eren Jaeger and Jean Kirstein ended there relationship?" Someone asks.

"Yeah I guess, they only been together for two weeks, what do you expect?" Another voice spoke. I clench my fist under the table. I could hear them all away from here!

Jean and I became the new topic for people to gossip about.

"Eren, how come you never told me you were together with Jean?" Mikasa held my shoulder.

"I thought you would get mad at me.."

"Your my brother, I would support you in any way, even if it meant your gay-"

"I'm not gay, just this once I decide to date a guy." I sigh, I glance over to Jean, at least he isn't getting bombarded with questions and supporting comments. I look away, Jean wasn't the only hurting.

I was also hurting.. My heart was breaking slowly without Jean. I should have never kissed him on that night. I should have never fell in love with him.  I should have never met him..

"So they were dating?"
"He's gay? Gross."
"Being gay is the grosses thing I've heard about, it should be illegal."
"Eren and Jean? They were a couple?."
"Shut up you guys, Eren is sitting right there."
"I see why Eren broke up with Jean, he's an asshole. I bet he always punched Eren and abused him."
These lame comments were triggering me. tI stood up and hit my fist on the table, getting everyone's attention. "Shut up! You don't know so what gives you the right do you have to judge!" I yell. Mikasa stood up beside me.

"Eren, sit down." I sat back down. The chatter continues. Mikasa hugs me. "It's hard but you'll be alright, okay?"

I nod. I wasn't hurting! At least that what I'm telling myself.

I bet Jean was getting annoyed as well. I'm sick and tired of these stupid rumours, they're not one bit true. Any of them. Jean didn't abuse me, he loved me, made sure I was well, and took care of me. I got up from the table, I felt eyes following me, I just wanted it to stop. It was pressuring me even more. I walk out of the cafeteria and sit down at the edge of the platform, letting my legs dangle off the edge. I sigh, wanting to cry. I let a tear drop down my face, which turns into a quiet sob. "Damn.." 

"Eren." Armin and Mikasa sit beside me.

"Those stupid guys! How dare they even talk like that." My voice shook.

"Ignore them, yeah?" Armin rubs my back. I sniff and wipe my tears.

"I'm trying."

"Eren, if your hurting this bad, why don't you talk to Jean? Clear things up." Mikasa suggest.

"No, that's not going to work." I sigh. "And I'm not hurting!"

"Let Eren be by himself." Armin says.

"Okay, if you need anything Eren, we'll be inside." Mikasa rubs my shoulder.

"Okay."

I'm left alone. I sniff and wipe my face again. Maybe I was hurting, but I don't want to admit it. It's was tearing me apart.
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"What the hell are you doing? Stop-" I hit them in the crotch, but realizing he's with other three I don't recognize. "Fucking beat the shit out of him!" The person yelled, as the three pick me up from the ground. "Put me down-" they punch my nose, making it bleed. I wince. "Help meehh.." They muffle my scream using there hands. They take me behind the building, punching, kicking me. My body hurts.
"Hey get away from him!"
"You bastards, I'll kill you!"
"Eren!"
I heard three voices, that's when they stop. "I-it's Mikasa! Run!"
I curl in a ball, the pain was unbearable, my tears noticeable. "Those fucking scums jumped me." I scream.
"Eren, are you alright?" I see Jean with them, sadness in his eyes.
"Eren." Mikasa fell on her knees, lifting me up to hug me. "Are you okay? I heard you scream for help."
I saw Jean's hurt expression, he looks away. "Y-yeah, I'm fine."
"Let's go see the nurse."
Armin and Mikasa supported me up, I look at Jean. He looks at me. His hurt look on his face made me look my sanity, I was going to cry even louder any moment. My heart broke even more. Before I could cry even more, I look away and found an excuse to cry. What a weakling I am.
Flashback..
Jean held my shirt collar as he raised his fist to hit me.
"What did you say to me?"
"I said your a horse face! Do you have a problem with that!"
"I do! Your not allowed to call me that!"
"Tch."
"Tsk."
Jean then sighed. "This is pointless, sorry."
"Hey wait!" I pulled his sleeve.
"What do you want?"
I then pin him to the wall, angry with him. "Weren't we gonna break up? Well I'm breaking up with you here right now!"
"W-what? We were but not now-"
"Yes! Right now! I'm sick of us fighting when I know we both are madly deep in love with each other! It's not right. I'm sorry Jean."
He has a hurt look then he frowns and clench his teeth. He pushes me off him and he walks off. I sigh. I didn't want to leave him too. But it had to be done. Before I start tearing up, I walk away too.