Bang!
The sound of a bullet
It's shiny surface shimmering
Breaking out of the gun mercilessly
I toss slightly
Arghh!
A splash of blood
The drops explode
A blast of hot red flames
I squeeze my eyes
Help!
A motionless body
Above lies a dandelion
Stained to the shade of scarlet
I let out a tear
Hahaha!
The joker was cruel
His heart was a stone
He killed my brother
I screamed
No!
This cannot happen
Give me back my brother
He laughed again
I close my fists
Wait!
Stones don't deserve to be given life
He needs to repay me
He needs to die
I open my eyes
He can't live! He does not deserve to. He needs to die.
He needs to experience my brother's pain. He needs to scream in agony. He needs to leave the Earth. Before another girl is made to cry.
I'll kill him. I will avenge. Avenge for my pain. Avenge for his pain. Avenge for my loss.
Slash! The sound of a knife. I aim it at him. One. Then two. Then three. Then four. I snicker in satisfaction. You will die now. I have killed you. I have gotten justice for my sufferings.
Until.
Slash again! I feel something painful push me forward. My eyes widen. My legs get tripped and tangled up, without warning. I hold the nearest wall for support. I touch my back and feel something hot.
I bring my fingers forward my face. Blood. Red flames. Scarlet. Not again! I bring them back to my back and pull it out. The object that gave me happiness just moments ago. The shiny surface and dark black handle. It was covered in a thick red liquid. My thick red liquid. My blood. But. How? Why?
I'll never give up. Vengeance does not die upon easily.
Zoop! The haze in my vision was gone. I was seated. Comfortably. I was moving. Swifty. Where was I? I saw. A steering wheel in front of me. A glass revealing an excellent view. Except that, the only thing viewed was darkness. Oh, how beautiful! I was having a moment of peace.
Until.
Bam! There he was. On the road in front that suddenly appeared out of nowhere. Laughing like always. As though I was a joke. I'll kill him today. I will finish everything. I will send peace to my brother. My hands find the steering wheel without instruction. I grab it the tightest I ever can. It's my turn now. To play the lets-kill-you game. I press the accelerator. I drive forward with full speed. 50 metres. 40 metres. 30 metres. Here I come!
Until.
Zap! A spark of brightness blinded me. I felt the ground. Felt pressure in my feet. Felt the heartbeat in my chest. Felt the hair standing on edge on my arms. My hands were stretched out forward. Still in the position of holding the steering wheel. Only the steering wheel was missing. My hands quickly dropped to the ground, not strong enough to win against gravity. I was standing on a road. That led to nowhere. The sides were blank. Completely black. Like a chalkboard waiting to be written on for the first time. I looked side to side. Then, I looked straight ahead. What was going on? Wasn't I just about to kill him? Wasn't I so close to achieving my goal? To completing my revenge?
Leave! Get out of there! You shouldn't do this! You're going to get hurt! Leave! Save yourself! Pull yourself out!
My brother. He just spoke to me. Told me to leave. I heard his voice. The familiar silky smooth voice. I haven't heard that in years. I missed his voice. I missed him. I will not let the murderer live. The one who took away my brother's voice from me does not deserve to be able to hear his own voice. I will kill him.
No! Please leave! Get out of there! Let him live! Don't kill him!
Don't kill him? How could you that? How could my brother say that? He took you away from me. He took the only one I ever had away from me. He does not deserve to live! He needs to die.
Stop!
No, you stop! He killed my brother and I will kill him.
Screech!
I heard the wheels of a vehicle. I turned around. The same truck. The same glass. The same steering wheel. The same seat. But, why am I on the road? I don't move. I can't move. I look ahead horrified. Terrified. I scream.
Bang!
I feel metal piercing through my body. It lifts me into the air. Throwing me forward. Like a javelin from its launcher's hand. I fly forward. Flying would be enjoyable, my brother told me. He was wrong. It was painful. It hurt really bad. I hit the ground as hard as my body could crash. Blood was oozing out everywhere. My vision blurred, my limbs were numb and my heart was freezing, slowly coming to a stop. But, why couldn't I move? Why?
It came with the wind. A full bloomed dandelion in fresh white. And, that's when I realised why. I was trapped. Caged with all my hatred and vengeance. I wanted to hurt someone. Even if that someone killed my brother, he was still someone. I was deceived that revenge will reduce the pain. It doesn't. It increases the pain. Until you are no longer able to breathe. He warned me. My brother told me to leave. I'm sorry I couldn't do what he said. I'm sorry I couldn't save myself.
I watch the dandelion slowly float down to the ground. It is beautiful. So bright and pure. Until. It touches my pool of blood on the ground. It adapts a shade of scarlet. It got ugly. So corrupted and full of sin. Revenge does not turn away the pain. Revenge does not bring justice. Revenge does not change the past. It only ruins your future.
I closed my eyes. Slowly evaporating towards hell. Even the last beautiful thing I saw was ruined by me.
By my Vengeance.
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