Poetry Instead Of Suicide

Fight

my body's cold

lips are blue

why did I do this because of you?

I feel the earth below me

like a pillow under my head

no knives, no gun, pills instead

the bottle lays empty

cap unscrewed

what did I do?

my spirit floats, my body lays

my lover finds me

& she prays

I reach for her

I'm sucked away

like a deep create of a wave

she pounds the ground

screaming " why? oh why?"

i asked myself " why did I?"

my parents arrive, my bestfriend too

I thought to myself what did I do?

I look away the pains to deep

my life is over because of me

I look back for one last glance they zip me up in the body bag

I did this to ease my pain

I lost instead of gained

as I look down at my family

I regret that night

my life stoped ticking

because of a fight