After Ambrie and I's meet up I haven't talked to her in forever. It's been a month now, to think that my best friend has not called nor text me in a month scares me. Not only was I going through things so was Ambrie. I honestly didn't understand and didn't care to.
"Mom! Where are is my black skirt?" I yelled to her downstairs. I have to get out this house everything I have always comes up missing because she wants to be fast and wear my things.
"I put it back where I got it from my dear." she said back.
I felt myself getting mad, I don't know why. My mom says that I need therapy, I think not.
I looked down at my phone and Deshun's phone number popped up.
"Wassup?" I said into the phone. Over the month we have found out so many things about ourselves. I really am not in love with Deshun. I don't even know if I love myself. Deshun does other things rather than just dope. I am the valedictorian of my class, which is so surprising to me but hey my counselor told me that and I am so I took it. Deshun is doing great in all the classes to be a physical therapists.
"I really need your help Shy. Like please come over it's an emergency." He said into the phone. In a way I was worried but then again I could care less just like he did for me.
"Okay, I'll be there." I said.
I went downstairs to get something to eat from my mom. I honestly don't care what the emergency is, but I know that if I called him he would come racing my way.
"So what are you doing this morning?" My mom asked me.
"Well, I have a class at 12:00. But first I'm going to take Junior over his dad's house and then go to work." I said taking a bite of my bagel.
"Sounds productive, baby, get a pep in your step though, you walk around here all depressed and sad." She said. I stopped chewing. Did she not just hear what she said. I felt myself get hot. I grabbed my food and Junior and left out the house.
I drove uptown since that's where Deshun stayed.
I pulled into the driveway, and what do I see, balloons and signs also flowers everywhere.
I got Junior out the car also with Junior in his car seat. I was about to get back in my car and leave if this was the damn emergency.
I walked into the house and I see bags of Pink Victoria's Secret, Ivy Park, Wet Seal, Nike, also some Adidas stuff everywhere.
"Deshun! Getcho ass down here now." I said.
I saw him walk down the stairs looking too good. I don't know why Deshun has these types of effects. Honestly, I could care less about all this.
"Hey baby, I just thought I should update your wardrobe a little." He said walking down the stairs, showing all his tattoo's and the suit he had on.
"So you expect for you to have a baby on me and then come back to you just because you spent some money on me?" I said with my hands on my hips.
"Nah baby, see I know you so well that I know you wouldn't even take it." He said smiling.
Damn him and those white teeth. No, I will not fall for this but I will take this stuff.
"Oh, I'll take it but I'll leave you here." I said laughing at him.
"You real cold now all of a sudden. Now don't act like you were never in love with me Shy."
"Well, let me stop you there and what I have came up with is that I really wasn't. Just think about it." I said as I walked toward him slowly.
"I was very young, broken oh, and lets not forget innocent. Yeah, I've been there with you through everything but what does that mean to you? I can answer that for you. Look where you are and look where I'm at. You are here and I am there. I sleep good every night while you have bags under those beautiful eyes of yours. I'm not going to say that I didn't love you but I won't say that I was in love, never that. So who can really say they were in love?" I said covering my mouth and smiling.
