It's been a year and 8 months since I've begun this downward spiral of adoration,
which slowly turned into infatuation, and now into desperation
the thought of loving you consumes every cell in my body,
resulting in premature aging and heart breaking
i want to take you to a beautiful garden
and tell you your the most beautiful flower in it
i want to learn you inside and out
I want to know that makes you tick
i want you to tell me your favorite food over and over again
because I always seem to forget it
no matter how many times you insist we make it for dinner
i want you to tell me what you think happens to us after death
and if you believe in soulmates
I want to love you and support you in everything you do,
from your first tattoo
to what city we should move to
i want to intertwine our souls
and know that wherever this life leads us,
I'll always have you
i want to move into a big house
and get a dog
and raise a family
and grow old
with you
I can't ensure that any of my wants will become reality
but all I can do is hope that one day, you'll learn to love me
as much as I've learned
to love you
-hb
