Bestfriend or boyfriend? (Jacksepticeye x reader) ON HOLD

Chapter 6

Hello, this chapter is just a flashback so please do not be confused. I promise im trying to make my chapters better and longer. Like i said before, its very time consuming. But im trying to be as active as i can. But anyway, enjoy the new chapter
ps sorry for long a/n
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I bandage my wrists and throw on a hoodie. I sit in my room and read a book that we had to read for class. I have nothing else to do. What seems like hours i noticed it was 12:00 in the morning(don't know time in europe and anywhere else, sorry im american😕). I decide to just lay down even though i wasn't tired. After a few minutes of silence, i hear the door open. My parents are home. I hear them laughing then it was silent. Then i heard their footsteps that went to their bedroom. Their door slammed. I hate my parents. I'm just useless to them. Sean is the only thing that makes me happy. His smile, is so happy. So confident. He loves his life, unlike mine. I decide to lay down and i drift to sleep. I soon as i know, my alarm went off. I got up, deciding to wear the same clothes from sleeping. I go downstairs, grab some toast and go to the bus. As i walked to the bus stop, it started to rain. 'Great' i thought. I waited for the bus and eventually it showed up. I got in and saw a smiling sean. 'He always so positive, why can't i be?' I sit beside him and notice him staring at me, lost in reality. "Sean? Are you okay?" I snapped my fingers to get his attention, and i did. He looked away and i giggled. We talked as we were being drived to school. Then the bus suddenly stopped and the doors opened. I sighed and got off the bus. As usual, i was stared at as we walked into school. Some giggling, some laughing, some whispering. I sighed and looked down at my feet as we walked. Sean was holding my hand, i felt heat come upon my face. As the day passed, i got the same negativity. Finally the end of the day. I felt relieved. Sean said he could come over and talk with me. We both rode the bus back home. I went to my door and grabbed my key and opened it. The house was dark and silent, as usual.

We went to my room and talked about our day and usual things we see in class. I was getting thirsty so i told him i would get us some water. I walk downstairs and get two waters. I walk up and sean was holding something, a razor(is this correct term im not smart).
"Y/n?? W-what is this?!" His voiced cracked. I look down with dissapointment. "Why are you doing this to yourself?" He tried to hold back tears, but failed. He started to cry. "...Let me see your arms..." Those words seemed to blind all my hearing in the backround. All i could hear was his chocked sobs. I wrap my arms around my stomach. "Please" he managed to finally say. I hold my arms out for him to pull my sleeves up. He lingers his hands over my sleeves and pushes them up. He cups his hands over his mouth. He fell to his knees and started to cry. A kind that you couldn't breathe type of cry. I got down on my knees beside him. I need to tell him the truth. "If you want the complete truth then look. I lift up my sweater and he sees cuts on my stomach and sides. He looks at me with disbelief and shock. I pull my sweater back down. I look at my hands and sighed. All of a sudden, i'm pulled into a hug. "I'm so sorry, i'm so sorry. I should've known." He whispered into my ear. I hug him back with sympathy. After a few minutes of hugging, he pulled away. "Are there any more?" He asked serious but curious. I sigh and nod my head.
"My ankles..." He looked so sad. "Please stop. It isn't healthy. I can help you. I'll do anything, just please stop hurting yourself." He begged.
"Okay"
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I was knocked out of my thoughts when i hear sean walk into the room. He had just finished playing GTA V with mark, wade, and bob. I had decided to go to bed to clear my head and think to myself. "Did i wake you up y/n?" He said softly. "No, i've been awake." He walked to the other side of the bed and layed down. He got close to my face and smiled. I smiled back and kissed him. He wraps his arms around me and i fall asleep in his warmth.