Ellana's POV.
I haven't spoken to Niall since the fight, He hasn't called and I'm starting to question if we ever really loved each other at all. I sit on Liam's sofa hidden by his fluffy covers and I haven't moved or blinked for mintues and I truly believe its starting to freak him the fuck out as he watches me with creased eyebrows and turned down lips. I know I have to sort it out with Niall but I don't know where to begin, How do you fight for someone you were only ever playing a game with? We never got the chance to love each other so how am I supposed to run to him and tell him I want him back when I never really had him.
"This is your chance to properly be with him and you just wanna lay here and try to pretend whatever you two had wasn't special?" Liam questions brushing hair off my face as I finally move my eyes to look up at him, I just stare though, there's nothing to say because the answer is something I'm not sure of, was it special? I was a bitch and he was promiscuous our relationship wasn't even a relationship, it was a game of chance, its not a stereo type fairytale, It doesn't just get fixed when you don't really know what you're fixing, I ruined lives, Naomi and Liam don't talk anymore, Bel and Harry argue all the time and her and Josh got a divorce last month, Colleen and Zayn are going through the stage in the relationship where the silly bickering starts to kick in , everything seems so wrong right now so how can I possibly find the strength to try and make things right? Its like we were born to live in this nature, this atmosphere where things go great then they get torn away and nothing goes back to how it was. I spent my childhood growing up to that story, love just doesn't fit into the equation. My girls and me we hardly talked, Naomi had a new bestfriend and Bel had moved away, Colleen and me stayed in contact but she was still more on Niall's side than mine and I really couldn't blame her, isn't it funny how the glue that stuck the girlgroup together seemed to just die out and ended up being the cause of them fading away? It was a distant life we had dropped out of the x factor after the rumours in the newspapers spread and we started getting hate, Most of the girls settled down but I just stayed with Liam, the flatmate who was just lounging around waiting for a reason to actually try to belong again, The brunette male in front of me kissed my nose and sighed walking away, which is when I propped myself up.
"Isn't it sad Li? The hardest thing is loving someone and then not having the courage to let them love you back" I don't even know where that even came from I just suddenly started to think about why I didn't ever get serious with Niall and that somehow blurted out of my mouth.
"Then get some courage" Liam replied as he smiled at me, leaning against the doorway and I raised my eyebrows at him finally picking myself up.
"I will if you will" I answered as witty as ever as I nodded my head towards the picture he kept of Naomi, the fading image of the smiling girl and curling corners lit by the candles and fire as if some form of hope was here again, Liam turned his head towards it and sighed gently tracing the outline of her features as he picked the photo frame up and smiled regretfully before nodding at me with a new spark in his eyes.
"Deal" He stated with feirce determenation as he ran upstairs and I stared after him confused as I sat down near the fire and then he reappeared on the steps with an outfit in his hands I stared confused and then he handed me the soft waterfall cardie with leather sleeves and a beautiful red dress with swallows on, much like the one i wore when I first met Niall but much more mature looking, I stared at him amazed and he shrugged.
"I got you it a while ago I just saw the dress and remembered what Niall said to you, he always liked that red dress on you." I could see that night clear as anything now as I laughed to myself about how pissed I actually was, it was the first time I managed to handle my drink correctly.
"Go get him tiger" Liam told me as he shrugged his coat over his shoulders and started to unlock the door, I frowned as I fondled the clothes gently.
"Where are you going?" I questioned back as I started to get myself ready and text Colleen asking her to ask Zayn where Niall would be. Liam turned back to me and winked as he unlocked the door.
"To win over Naomi" He responded and I grinned running over to give him a kiss on the cheek, in the past few months Liam had been like a brother to me although a lot of fans shipped us and there was speculation we were dating we had denied it happily I honestly never expected to be so close to him, Louis is like a best mate but he's busy all the time so we rarely talk and zayn is like a father away from home! As for Harry well we get along though we've never really spent much time together since the dilemma with bel. I had spoken to George and we'd became like a couple we'd even been on a few dates but I wasn't sure what I felt with him was like what I felt with Niall. It wasn't challenging or surprising enough I didn't want to risk losing him as a friend so we'd kept it on the down low I know we both suit each other and it's a pain in the ass but my head and heart both just tell me I'll never love him enough to last, We're like the best of friends now instead and coffee buddies as we like to call it. I change into the silky soft clothes and sit for a while by the fire, Bad choice really because I'm starting to overthink, Do I really want to do this? I'm risking everything, What if he's moved on? So much has happened, can i really just turn up at his door and act like it never occured? Its so wrong and I'm starting to think on the other hand, I've already lost so many people can I honestly bare to lose this amazing boy too? I ponder for a while covering my hands in my leather jackets sleeve's. I think I've got a plan.....
Naomi's POV.
I sit in my room with my beats headphones on jamming out at the loudest volume as I'm home all alone and basking in a freedom I never really had before, But the music is a reminder of what could've been with me and my girls, every song is taunting me, Every bit of free will is like a haunting, It doesn't feel safe or right not having Liam around to protect me anymore and at first I tried to deny it, Telling myself he cheated on me so I don't have to be the one that hurts the most but the truth is hearts don't break even and Liam couldn't care less if he had the strength to cheat in the first place and I should've realised sooner. I've tried to put a brave face on everytime the paps still surround my doors in my house, I try to make myself look pretty and wear my designer clothes again and smile but its almost impossible, I let everyone down by falling in love, I could've kept the girlband going and I never did, I was so full of spite and bitterness I didn't even realise I was throwing away my perfect world and the perfect man too. Nothing's really been the same since, Each smile fades and gets a little weaker every day, each step out of my comfort zone feels more pressured than ever and each morning is one I don't want to wake up to. I try to push those thoughts away as I skip the song that brought the memories to surface and I type away on my blog, I'm writing an article for my agony aunt website, I found a lot of strength after the events of the past happened but I was also left with strength for everyone else but myself. I could hear my mum yelling from downstairs, I'd decided to stay with my parent's for a little while after Liam and me, It felt more at home than staying with a friend. I sat for a while just letting the bass bang around my head on repeat, then I heard her yell again and Carmel moaning from next door with a defeated sigh I picked myself up from my slouch and moved slowly towards my door, It felt like I was dragging myself not taking one step at a time, I got to the door all too soon, Great now I had to be social. My feet found their way to the steps and almost as if it were routine they automatically moved down them knowing the way but it still felt strange actually stepping outside my room for once. Closer and closer and closer still I got until I was leaning over the staircase to see my mum stood at the door debating with someone and my dad in the middle of the two of them, I stared in confusion and worry as I sunk lower on the step.
"Mum?" I asked with a hint of anger in my voice as I stepped away from the stairs and into the living room, my mum and dad turned at the same time, my mum barely glancing in my direction as she looked at the other person worried. I inched closer still and my dad shook his head so I stayed rooted to the spot and I was kind of freaked out but at the same time I had a small suspicion I knew who was calling for me.
"You shouldn't be here" My parents said at the same time and I barged past quickly to see what all the chaos was about, only to find someone I hadn't seen in a long time standing at my doorway lounging against the wall and frowning at my parents before they turned to me slightly and responded. "Does she think that?" I looked up in surprise and my mouth moved but no words came out, My eyes reached the person and time just froze.
Colleen's POV.
"Zayn where are we going?" I asked experatedly as I forced my feet to move another step across the hot grains of sand, He just turned and gave me that cheeky grin of his that I had fallen so madly in love with and I had to admit it was adorable as he held my hand and dragged me like an excited puppy, Shaking his head as if to tell me he wasn't going to say, I giggled as he pulled me along and I held my sunglasses on my head, People were watching all along the beach and smiling affectionately as Zayn pulled me with him and we ran across the sand close to the waves jumping out of the way every time they almost caught our ankles. We were on holiday in Malaysia, we asked friends for advice on what to do to stop all the bickering in our relationship cause lets face it neither one of us wanted to lose it and they had all suggested a nice relaxing holiday, We were reluctant at first thinking it was a bit of a risk if we fell out while on holiday paps would know about it no doubt, but now I'm really glad we did it, Truth was I found out a while after we had booked our tickets and hotels and stuff, I had found out a shocking secret that was actually very exciting...I'm pregnant with Zayn's baby and I'd been waiting for the perfect oppurtunity to tell him, there didn't seem to be a better time than on the holiday and I'd loved every part of it so far, romantic walks and late night swims, amazing adventures and sightseeing, meeting the fans we never even knew we had and most of all just spending time together in somewhere so luxurious and beautiful, its one of those things you need to expirience with someone close to your heart and I couldn't think of anyone better than the perfect angel that was standing in front of me, We're as loved up as ever but I think sometimes I might be more than him, its the way I take in every little detail about him that I took for granted before, the romantic actions he makes, the time he takes for me and his gorgeous features, Everybody really does underestimate Zayn. It was now coming towards the end of our holiday and I was sad to be leaving but glad to know I would have the chance to go home and tell everyone the good news, I don't know if I could keep the secret for much longer! It took me a while to come down from my thoughts and realise that Zayn had stopped, I looked around and couldn't help but squeal when he came up behind me clasping his hands over my eyes.
"No peeking okay?" He said into my ear his lips softly brushing my neck, I smiled and nodded holding my hands over his as I felt him press a soft kiss to my jaw, Slowly he started guiding me a little further and then his hands slid away from mine, I tried to stay calm as I clamped my eyes shut and stayed stock still, He moved my hands so they covered my own eyes and all I could hear was waves crashing around me and all I could feel was my floaty silk cream dress blowing about in the wind, I probably looked crazy right now. I frowned a bit as I stood impatiently and I heard Zayn laughing slightly in the distance. "Patience is a virtue babe" I heard him tease as I stuck my tongue out,hopefully in his direction. I stood like it for a while until I could feel someone moving closer, I tensed up and then relaxed as I felt my hands being removed from my eyes and then a pause of silence I tilted my head up a bit and Zayn bent low close to me and whispered "Open your eyes" I quickly fluttered them open to see a bunch of people standing around us whispering and smiling.
"Zayn???" I asked hesitantly and he shushed me and nodded towards a couple of people in a certain area, I looked down to see I was stood right on the coastline and Zayn came up behind me.
"See anything in the water?" He asked as a beautiful purple twilight night sky settled around us making the sea look black, I frowned and let my eyes scan the sea suddenly a million little lamps lit the sea up as they bobbed along the water and my eyes widened as I looked at Zayn he just smiled and nodded, I continued looking and saw right in the middle of all the lanterns a small bottle on a wooden tray sat atop a pillow was floating along the waves, I stared in amazement as my feet instantly crept closer, it arrived right next to me as if it was meant to be and I bent down slowly picking it up, I opened it cautiously and heard people "oohh" and "ahhh" around me, I smiled and frantically tugged the carefully wrapped note out, I unscrolled it and began to read the scrawly writing.
He's got a surprise for you, Something to show you how special you really are, What are you waiting for? Turn around...
it read and I laughed slightly spinning in the sea towards the boy I loved knowing he wrote it, thinking he was playing some kind of crazy prank on me I rolled my eyes looking at the note still as I called his name with a tired sound, The baby was making it harder for me to stay awake and lively such a long time so I wasn't really in the mood for jokes but then as I turned....something I really wasn't expecting stood in front of me. Everyone was cheering and clapping as Harry and Louis stood next to a lit up sign planted in the sand with a little heart drew on the sand in front of it, they held the sign up as they dressed in suits and Zayn was down on one knee in front of the sign that read the most scary and yet exciting words I'd ever had to read, 4 words that changed everything, in his own suit, I looked around amazed as fairy lights hung around me and across from it all I saw the girls I had grown up with, the sisters to me, Rebecca and Bel were clapping from the sidelines with the Union J boys hidden amongst them and the crowds of people. My mouth dropped to the ground and Zayn laughed shaking his head.
"Colleen, This wasn't exactly how I planned it in fact it was all a bit last minute but it still came off amazingly and so I really really really hope you follow the script I wrote for us in my head otherwise this effort is all gonna be for nothing. It may seem a bit cliche but the words I have to say to you now really aren't because I know what we've got together is unique its not like the traditional crap everyone else talks about to be blunt and I know its been hard lately so the promise I wanted to make to you before I said the four vital words was something I spent nights dreaming about and days worrying about when you weren't watching. " My hands flew to my mouth as I felt tears spring to my eyes as I stood in the warm waters watching everyone around me grin and urge Zayn on as he was in the sand looking at me with the most raw and pure love I had ever seen in his eyes.
"Colleen Butler, No few years have been as amazing as the one's we've had together now and I know it hasn't been very long but with you every second of every day seems to go just that bit slower in time because I observe you like its my last chance every minute of my life, I'm not good with my words or letting my feelings out and I never have been but something about you just makes me want to pour my heart out and yet I still know I couldn't say half of the things I tell you to anyone else, We fight and we argue over silly things but that's what makes us click and guess what? Its never been more worth it than it is when after a few hours you're back in my arms, Its in those few hours I realise how I'd really feel if I lost you and I know better than anyone I'd lose myself too and I'd have no way to fix it, The words I'm saying right now they're so precious even if they just sound like a massive ramble, We've been through a lot not just within our own relationship but within our friends also and we've lost so much along the way and yet through it all we've managed to keep a hold on each other and to me that's something new and amazing I've never felt or experienced before. You know that you're my sun, my moon and everything inbetween. We feel the same, think the same and talk the same, The words would sound wrong if I said them to anyone else but Coll you're my soulmate and so I have to do this now even if it is a bit early because I can't contain it any longer everytime I tell you I love you I want to give you this speech and thats how I know this is right so please please please Colleen Butler will you do me the honour of becoming a Malik? Will you Marry me?" My mind is having an epiletic fit right now as I watch my boyfriend stare at me with tears in his eyes and he brings out from the sand beside him an amazingly beautiful and yet simple elegant ring in a satin red box, I'm letting the happy tears fall now as I stand in awe of the setting and the people around me and now also my amazing fiance, everything except from us in this moment has now frozen, even the words I need to say can't escape me because I want to pause this forever and at the same time I know I have to say the words on the verge of my lips. I smile and run up to him clasping him in a massive hug as he spins me around.
"Are you kidding? Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god" I whisper into his neck as I let my tears fall with a nervous laugh as I smile into his shoulder.
"Is that a yes?" He asks self consciously as he tilts my head up by the chin and I look him in his gorgeous chocolate brown eyes with honesty shining through.
"Yes you idiot of course! Yes yes yes yes a billion times over" Zayn laughs and holds me close twirling me on the spot as we smile and laugh together and everyone cheers some people even crying, Louis and Harry lighten the mood with their subtle teasing as they yell enthusiastically.
"I was wondering when you were gonna man up and get the balls to ask me" I murmured into his soft raven hair as I ran my fingers through it with mascara stains down my cheeks he looked at me still crying slightly as he picked me up making me scream in surprise.
"Shut up and kiss me" He stated simply and as I stared at the angel in front of me I couldn't think of anything better to do, fireworks went off around us quite literally as I obeyed and softly moved my head towards his as he tilted my body slightly to kiss me under the moonlight, Some people skimmed rocks over the water for effect and I looked at everyone smiling as we linked hands and Zayn slipped the engagement ring on my finger. I looked at it and never felt more grateful for anything in my life as he kissed my hand and leant up out of his stance as we walked around saying hello to everyone though I couldn't help but wish the girl who I'd truly spent the journey with was here and the boy she was destined to be with beside her. Things would've been even more perfect but now I have to focus on getting home and telling Zayn that now we've also got a family to look forward to starting!
Niall's POV.
So here I am sat in the recording studio, yet again I should be with the boys but I couldn't bring myself to do it as selfish as it sounds. Colleen and Zayn's wedding today and here I was, back where I started before Ellana came along. The me who was sad and sarcastic, tired and sassy a basic blonder version of Louis with a hint more vengance and I'd sworn to myself more than anyone I wouldn't go back to that guy. I got counselling now and Zayn supported me most of the way, hid the alchol from me and the cigarettes before it could corrupt me like it did him, The other boys didn't understand it but then how could they? They'd never had to fight for the thing they wanted and they'd never had to question whether they needed to fight for it or not, they knew and it came naturally to them. It was safe to say I missed the old me but in all honesty the old me wasn't even me, it was Ellana, its almost like yin and yang, she was a half of me and I was the other, the good and the bad mixed together until the tradition became so old you didn't know which was which anymore. I missed her more than anything because missing her meant missing me, If she came back then so would everything else I missed and loved but that's the problem, I let her go and she let me let her go and even though he was the reason all this started she still chose Liam, I'd read the rumours ,seen the way Liam judged me when I was even within breathing distance of cigarette smoke or a grab away from a stand of drinks, He loved her in a way I never could, a safe and supportive way something he could guarantee her and I didn't even have that kind of closure for myself anymore. It seemed yet again everyone else was happy, every other boy had love to fall in and out of but I was stuck on pause in the love aspect of my life. So many thoughts whirling round my head made it hard for me to concentrate as my eyes bore into the soft crunchy paper, fresh on my recording desk and the feather quill beside it floating around in the ink, around me scraps upon scraps of meaningless words, I'd never had a problem transfering feelings into song but right now I had so many each line contained too many lyrics. I looked at the shelf of drinks beside me with a desperate glance in my eyes, I so wanted to just take a swig and not care anymore, maybe my words would come out better then than they ever could right now, But in my head I saw the disapproving faces of the people I loved when they found me passed out from all the drink, I heard the angry tone of words from the boys every time I smashed another item up in the house due to my growing anger problems, then I felt the anxiety now and after all that had happened, the constant niggle in the back of my mind telling me I'd turned into a monster and maybe I had, so what in all honesty had I got to lose now? They'd took it all and left me behind in the process, so what I have to do now....is take myself somewhere, somewhere zoned out from here and so with each painful step, The drink is closer and closer until the sweet tap of it hits my lips providing a warmth I hadn't felt in a while and even now my brain said to me "what a sad way to get my kicks" but right now I'd gone totally and completely numb.
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A/N: OOO I'm such a naughty writer, so many cliffhangers are in this chapter despite all the extra detail I had to put in. Who do you guys think is at Naomi's door? Will Colleen actually manage to tell Zayn they had a family starting or is it all moving too fast for them? Is Ellana going to save Niall and is Liam going to really look for Naomi or is there someone else he wants to win back? Comment what you guys think of the chapter and I might even update again today if I have time, I'm in the process of making a trailer but choosing the right dramatic backing music has been very complicated, I hope the journey is thrilling for you despite how long its taking! :) xx
Q AND A: Do you think Naomi should give Liam another chance if it is her he's fighting for? Should the girlgroup get back together? answer in the comments and don't forget to vote xD xox
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FanfictionNiall Horan has been single for 5 years now and watching the boys fall in and out of love has messed him up inside, He is guarded and often repulsed by the idea of love and adoration, Suffering from anger problems and anxiety the boys figure maybe f...
