At 5 years old she wanted to fly with the birds
high above the heavens never coming down
she would be free and fly and never have a care in the world.
but birds die eventually
and she knew she would too.
At 7 years old she started the circus of life
walking the tight rope with no net below
to catch her when she falls.
She knew them all but they didnt know anything
but her name.
At 9 years old she filled her diary
with hearts and names and she called it love
Romeo and Juliet taught her nothing.
She knew absolutely nothing yet she felt
she knew everything only hoping he knew her.
At 10 years old she became an artist
her depression the subject her pen and paper
the brush and canvas while other kids
played games she sat and wrote and wrote
till her hand hurt and her heart didn't.
At 13 years old she thought she had won the batter
had gotten over it, found someone new.
Her heart was a mason jar filled with love
till it was emptied and filled with fireflys
leaveing her to glow but never to shine.
At 14 years old she lost her way
she went down the wrong path with no way out
she went down every passage only getting more lost
with out a map she couldn't find her way home
only hoping someone would find her
At 15 years old she spent everynight wishing
on the stars waiting for them to wish for her
They burned bright but with no eyes
they were blind, never noticing her or her beauty
even though they knew she was beautiful.
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