LOUIS' POV
When Louis woke up the next morning he noticed that his lips were pressed to Niall's soft warm skin on his back. He gently pulled back and unhooked his leg from over Niall's hip. He rolled onto his back and tilted he head to look at Niall's fair back, at that moment the object of his fascination rolled over and Louis almost leaned over and kissed Niall's perfect parted lips. Niall's soft eyelashes fluttered softly and Louis almost cooed at his cuteness when he realised the boy was dreaming and making small whimpering noises. "Mummy..." Niall breathed and a crinkle appeared between his eyebrows.
Louis sighed and moved over until he was pressed to Niall's side and began stroking his chest and gently pressed kisses to his cheek. When Niall started to stir he quickly moved back to his position and waited for the blonde to open his eyes. Niall's blue eyes blearily opened and looked at Louis, he smiled and his hand reached out and brushed Louis' fringe out of his face. Lou grinned and pulled Niall into a hug. "Morning," he murmured.
"Good morning. You hurting?" Niall asked and suddenly Louis was reminded of what they did last night and the pain in his backside.
"Oh god, now that you mentioned it."
"Hahaha aw baby, I'll run you a bubble bath," Niall said and with that he jumped up and ran to the bathroom.
He was back minutes later and gently picked Louis up off the bed, cradled him to his chest and carried him to the bathroom then lifted him into the mass of bubbles and warm water. Louis moaned in delight and thanked Niall who said he would go down and cook breakfast. Louis nestled back into the soft bubbles and thought about what happened between them. He was sure that he must be gay and yet he couldn't let himself be because he wanted to be the perfect son to his parents. When he had finished washing himself he got out and dried himself then limped to his bedroom and got changed into comfy day clothes.
He could smell pancakes and he tried to hobble as fast as he could down to the kitchen. Niall was wearing his 'Kiss the chef' apron and nothing but a pair of black boxers. Louis almost attacked him right there but he remembered his promise to himself in the bath. That he wouldn't be gay and especially not for Niall, he didn't want to ruin their friendship.
Niall placed a small stack of pancakes before him with strawberries on top and ice cream on the side. He handed the maple syrup to him because he knew how Louis loved to douse his pancakes in the sugary goodness. They tucked in and it was only until Niall was on his last pancake that he asked about last night and what it meant.
"I guess it was just an experiment," Louis replied chewing slowly.
"Oh um okay, so you're not gay?"
"No I don't think so, I mean I liked it and I don't mind that you are but yeah I guess it's not for me."
"Okay then, so there's nothing between us?"
Louis was almost hurt by the half hopeful sound to Niall's voice, he hated hurting his friend.
"No Niall, I don't think it would be a good idea. I mean I don't want to ruin what we have, you know?"
"Actually I don't know Lou, I reckon we'd be perfect for each other. We know everything about each other and I can't bear to think of what would happen when we needed comforting after a mission or we missed our parents if we were in relationships. We know each other so well, we know exactly what the other needs and when and to be honest last night was one of the best nights of my life," Niall mumbled.
This actually sounded amazing to Louis' ears and yeah he couldn't imagine being comforted by some chick after he'd killed some people. "Yeah Ni but I don't even know what my parents would think about me being gay."
"That's the problem? Jesus Lou, they would want their son and godson to be happy together!"
"Well what if we had a fight huh? We would lose each other," Louis said.
"Lou when have we ever had a fight about anything bigger than you taking my Power Ranger doll?" Niall replied.
"We're having a fight right now!"
"Only because you're too blind to see what's in front of you! Louis Tomlinson, I have loved you since we were toddlers, that love has saved me from sadness and heartbreak for the past 24 years. You've always been there for me and I've always done the same for you. It's been just us since our parents died. And recently I've discovered a whole new way that I can show you how much you mean to me and how perfect you are! I want to be able to call you mine and in more ways than just last night. That wasn't even sex and we both know that that was the best we've ever had. I fucking love you."
"I love you too Ni. And maybe I can love you more like you say we could but I just need time," Louis said quietly, looking into Niall's eyes and silently begging him to understand.
"I would wait forever to be with you Louis," Niall whispered and gently pressed his lips to Louis' in the sweetest most gentlest kiss he had ever received. "But that's the problem."
