I deserved to die

Chapter 1• Truth or Dare?

I remember it like it was just yesterday. My wrists tied tightly together, gasping for breath, shivering; struggling to stay warm. To this day I still continue to say to myself it was all just a nightmare. But it keeps coming back to me as the days pass. Every time I think of it I get the worst feeling in my stomach. Not the feeling of butterflies or sickness to my stomach, but a sharp pain in the side of my stomach as if someone is stabbing me multiple times. I just can't get over the fact that I was kidnapped. At age 14 on May 13, 2011 it happened. I was with my friends James and Lizzie...

"So how about we spice things up a bit and play truth or dare?" |James

"Im down. What about you Nicole?" |Lizzie

I wasn't very sure. I stuttered quite a bit so they knew I was nervous.

"Umm.. I.. Umm.. I don't think thats such a good ide-" |Me

"Come on Nicole. Don't chicken out on us. It'll be fine. We'll go easy on you." |Lizzie

"Fine." |Me

"Good. I'll start. James, truth or dare." |Lizzie

"I'll start off with.. truth."| James

"Ok. So James. Was it really true that you had sex with six girls in a month?" |Lizzie

James face started getting really red. He looked so embarrassed.

"How the fuck-" |James

"James. Its fine. Whatever we say in this room stays in this room. Ok?" |Lizzie

"Alright. Fine. Yes I admit I did. It was a total mistake though. You all now might think of me as a man whore, but I was doing it because I got fired from my job and I needed some money. So girls hit me up and paid me for doing the deed." |James

Wow. I would never have expected that from James... He usually keeps quiet and sticks to himself. But hearing those words come from his mouth made me think differently about him. Not so much a bad different or good different. Just different.
The room got really quiet and awkward so James butted in-

"Alrighty then.. Lets just move on to the next truth or dare, shall we? Its my turn to ask so I guess ill ask you. *looks over at me* Nicole. Truth or dare?"

I got so nervous. I know if I picked dare they would dare me to do something outrageous and if I chickened out they would all laugh at me. And if I picked truth I would look like a chicken for not choosing dare so I didn't know what to do in this situation. But the look on Lizzie's face was screaming "Pick dare!" And so was James's.

"Alright fine. I'll pick dare." |Me

"Yes!" |James and Lizzie

I got so nervous.

"I dare you to break into our creepy neighbors house and take their money they have in their case." |James

"Hell no James! Are you crazy!" |Me

"Come on! It'll be easy. They're not even home sooo." |James

"Nope. Still not happening." |Me

I look down at the floor thinking to myself "Are these people crazy? Like I could get the police called on me." I look up and see that Lizzie and James are talking about something. They quickly turn to me.

"Ok so, what if.. We come with you?" |Lizzie

"You guys really want that money don't you?"   |Me

"Hell yeah we do. All three grand could be ours. A thousand for each of us." |Lizzie

"Well Im in. What about you Nicole?" |James

I thought about it. All these questions were running through my head, "Where is the money?" "What if we don't get the money?" "What if they arrive right when we get there?" "What if we get caught?" But then another part of me was like "Fuck it you only live once. And its a thousand dollars, I could do so much with that."

"Sooo..?" |James

"Fine. Im in." |Me