Mistakes and Buried Feelings

Told you I'd stay with you

Never let you go

You could count on me

To keep my promise

Told me you'd never leave

We'd always be close

I counted on you

Mistake number one

Told you that I missed you

That I still haven't pushed you

All the way out

Not yet at least

Left to my own devices

I buried my feelings

Locked them away

And I made my second mistake

So I turned inward

Hid myself like a recluse

Refused to let anyone in

And tried to stay 'cheerful'

Left alone, used and discarded

I can't hide the feeling

That I still miss you

Perhaps that's my third mistake.

And still I never told you

I've been left decaying on the inside

For quite a while now

Thanks to you

And decaying flesh can't hide

The feelings I've left locked up

So here's the key, unlock me if you will

I'll let someone in this time, even if it's my last mistake.