Poetry

Absence

You always said that you were scared,

Scared of me one day waking up and hating you. 

You are so scared that one day I'd feel the opposite of everything I feel for you now. 

But hate is not the opposite of love. Not in the way that black is the opposite of white.

Both are spectra, but whereas 

Black is every color, and white is the absence of it,

Love is the apex of emotion, but hate is not the absence of it.

Love is a thousand emotions at once, but so is hate. 

If love is all positive emotion, and hate is all negative,

What is the opposite?

The opposite of love is the opposite of hate. 

Apathy. Feeling nothing. 

I feel so many emotions toward you, and the opposite of emotion is none at all.

So don't be scared if I say I hate you.

Don't be scared if I get so mad that I won't speak, or if I get so depressed that I'm sobbing for you to go.

Be scared when I don't care. When I don't respond. 

Be scared when I won't hang out with you, or when your daily bullshit no longer phases me.

Be scared when I learn to live without you. 

Because at that point, I won't care whether you leave or stay.