Sometimes I know I'm alone.
That I'm not going
Anywhere just yet
Sometimes I feel stuck in time
Not moving forward
But staying right here
And I know that you don't think much, of me, my simple human being.
And I can't seem to feel,
And I'm stuck here
And I want to move
I want to feel more
More than this
More than the bland hurt
And my screams are now jaded
Toned down
Blurred out
And if I can be
More than what you think of me
More than the simple being
Maybe I can feel more
Move more
Learn to love this world
Learn to make myself heard
And not just listen
Because every word is like a mumble
A mumble that is quiet
One that no one hears
Because of A crowd around the voice
I want to know
I want to move
Move forward
Move from this hurt
This pain
The pain that takes life's away
The same pain I feel
The pain of your mental strength ebbing away
And now I'm not sure if I can hold it much longer
Hold onto the strength
I seem to be doing fine
But some nights it's bad.
And it's worse without you
When I can't talk.
When you won't say
When it's silence
When the silence breaks my heart
When I want to help
More than I know I can
And you tell me I can't
Can't help you
Not at all
You say go away
And I know I'm not wanted
So I leave
And I stay away
Stay away from the pain of today
I try to forget
But I just don't get
I don't get how
How people get past what's now
It's stuck in my brain
My thoughts and pains
I want you to be happy
I'll put you before myself.
Should I stay or should I go?
I really don't know
What do you want.
Do you want me to leave
Do you want me to stay
Am I bringing back pain
All the pain from the past
All the pain from now
The pain from yesterday?
