Hey, I'm Casey, and I'm about to tell you something that I've never told anyone before, my secret, this horrible and painful thing that I keep buried deep,deep down. You must promise me to never tell anyone about this, so shhhh....
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Kristen Stewart as Casey~
So, I live in One of the most dirtiest and dangerous parts of New York, where there are rats EVERYWHERE, rapers and robbers run the streets and everywhere you turn you see drunkards. My family actually looks like it belongs from a place like this, my mother is an alcoholic, my father is....well, he's an alcoholic too. My parents have MAJOR issues with each other and then on top of that they're both drunk more than half of the time, so you see, you can't really expect us to be that happy socializing family that you see in television and in most of the places you go. On top of all this I suffer major depression and get abused day to day, I've got scars and bruises all of over my body from all the torture but nothing on my face, because my parents had actually been smart enough (huge surprise) to not hit me on the face cause if they did, everyone would be able to see what I go through and all that. I doubt anyone would care though, everyone hates me.... I get bullied for all that I am, I can't be myself or people'll hate me even more.
Friday, 1st of September-
I wake up as the first Ray of sunlight hits my bedrooms (more like "attics") window, dreading the upcoming events, the worst thing is I don't even know what's gonna happen today... Am I going to get another detention at school? Going to have to drink bleach? Guess I'll just have to find out. I get out of bed as I hear bangs and screams coming from downstairs, oh shit, they're fighting again. All I can think of is crying, I try, but nothing happens , I try again but still nothing....guess I've gone through so much that I've turned completely emotionless, *sigh* oh well. As I walk over to the toilet I see something on the floor....blood? Wait, how did that get there??? I suddenly realize that there's a pin stuck in my hand, how did I not feel this? Who did this? And then I remember... Last night when I was about to get into bed, my father had come upstairs to my attic, with a safety pin in his hand, completely drunk and inhuman he came over to me, screamed at me telling me I was a huge disappointment to everyone and that he wished I'd never been born, as he finished saying this he grabbed my hand and dug the pin right into my palm . I remember being too exhausted to do anything, hoping that maybe...just maybe the pain from this would kill me, but no, I expected too much and now I'm let down all over again, "meh" I'm used to it. I open the Door and get in the toilet, " it smells like someone died here ", I say, I look in the mirror hoping to see something beautiful, but why? Why do wake up every morning having such high expectations, thinking that maybe, just maybe I might've magically turned beautiful overnight, I wish it was true but "duhh" ofcourse it's not. I brush my teeth with an old and dirty toothbrush, wash my face and put on my unwashed and crumpled clothes, I wear an extra large grey hoodie and some black tights, even though I'm anorexic, I hoped the long sleeves would cover up my memories, my scars... I tie my hair into a high ponytail pull my hood over my head. I get out of the toilet, grab my black backpack and go downstairs, as soon I reach the last step of the stairs I'm greeted with a slap from my mother, she smells like alcohol which of course, is quite obvious. I don't react with anything, just walk over to the door and go outside, I'm greeted with a fresh cold breeze blowing in from the west, I smell alcohol and see broken bottles of beer and wine on the side of my pavement, I hear footsteps coming closer to the door and I run, I run like the wind, I run from all my problems, I run free at last. My parents would never pay for transport so I walk to school, which is atleast 2km away from home, on the way I see a weird-looking silhouette, the "thing" comes closer and I realize it's a guy wearing a large coat, he doesn't look sober and I notice he's coming towards me at a fast pace, and without thinking anything I run away, I run for my life because I don't know what he's planning to do with me. I reach an abandoned apartment and look back, he's still there and I know he won't give up that easily so I run inside, I find a door, more like a thousand but I have no time to choose so I run into a door that's at the corner, I get inside and lock the door, I turn around and notice a someone sitting on the floor with their head between their knees. I walk over to the person and hesitantly tap them on the shoulder , the person abruptly raises their head and I realize it's a guy, an extremely attractive guy, I can't help but stare at him and I don't realize that he's staring back, I'm mesmerized by him and we just keep looking into each other eyes for what seems like an eternity, but then.....there's a sudden bang coming from out the door and we both suddenly look at the door, together. The so-called person who was following me knocks the door down and smiles at me with teeth that remind me of the stars at night, yellow and far apart from each other. He walks towards me and the guy who I supposedly have a HUGE crush on, gets up and stand In Front of me, in order to protect me, he says, "I dare you to touch her" but the creepy man just laughs in his deep voice and says, "what ya gonna do kid?". The guy says nothing and suddenly jumps on top of the huge man, he tackles him down but the man has a gun with him, he's just about to shoot when the guy gets off of him, grabs my hand and drags me out side the door and out of the run-down building. As soon as we're outside the guy takes a gun out from his pocket and shoots at one of the wooden pillars that was holding the building upright, the whole thing tumbles down and I doubt that the man inside is alive, he's probably crushed to pieces by now. The guy takes my hand and we run together to a tiny, cramped up gangway between two buildings and we just stand there completely breathless.....
