Once again I felt the need to go back and visit the Sadis house before they tear it down. Going back brought back a lot of memories especially the one when I met Estella and fell into some magical love. She had been the women of my dreams, until she had married Drumwell. Someone who i thought was my friend. As I opened the door the smell of the old flowers poured towards me, It made me remember why that was the smell in here house. I had begin to feel that I wasn't the only one there. That feeling of being watched and wondering what was going on was going through my head. As i walked down the hall towards the table that had the plates all ready for her wedding, that she had never intended on moving or putting away. I had turned around to notice that Estella was here also, and by herself. Where was Drumwell at? I walked over to her and began to say hello.. as she grabbed my hand and said, "Pip i'm sorry for the way that I treated you when you were a great friend to me..." I began to sit down next to when she explains how Drumwell and her arent married anymore which gives me the feeling that we had met in this house for a reason and that maybe just maybe I could have a chance with the love of my life, someone who met because her caretaker had been a tutor for me when I was younger. Being put back into the same house the same place made me realize that maybe Estella did have a heart she just didn't know how to show that she did... We grabbed each others hand and walked through the rest of the house together to remember Miss. Havisham someone who meant the world to both me and Estella. While making our way back past the table and the floor had been creaking the whole way through the house. I told Estella about everything that had happened to me and she had told me that she always has cared about me and for me but when she had met Drumwell she felt a different feeling and that once they became something together she realized that he wasn't like the person she wanted she wanted someone like Pip and that was when she realized she just wanted to be with Pip. As I sat there and listened to Estella I glared into her eyes and and told her how much I had loved her but ever since he found out about her and Drumwell his feelings had changed.. He didnt want to be with someone that didn't care about him until he went through what I went throught to be with her. Estella and I just wasn't to be. Every since the first day we met I was never good enough for her and I will never be good enough. I let go Estella's hand and make my way to home, where Mr.Joe had been to tell him goodbye.. and I proceed to tell him goodbye but not tell him why after what he had done for me was a great thing. I walked out of the house, and went back to the satis house and hung myself..
