Control freak

Grief

When I got back I went to my room ignoring everyone that asked me how it went and even Toby. I sooner hear a knock on my door and open it and before I get a glance of the person I was blinded. " w-whats going on?" No one answered and I got pulled into the darkness a bit more almost suffocating. I try to get them to let go of me and when they do I get fairly mad " Toby why did you do that!" He smiles and says " you looked like you needed a hug Freaky" I sigh some " I killed her the only one I wanted to stay alive...." I hug him tightly and Happy cat walks by " I'm guessing she is still not taking it well?" Toby nods and picks me up so I squeak. " what are you doing Toby!" He does not answer me and looks down at me " Control imma show you something ok?" I nod slightly a bit scared, he takes off his mouth guard to show me his little secret. I stay quiet ache gets a little worried " Did I scare you Control?" I shake my head and he puts me down. " i-i need to lay down.... Feel free to join me if you want Toby.... I guess" I sound depressed when I say that. I go over to my bed and lay down facing the wall curled up and Toby comes over and sits down near me " Control its fine you know.... All of us have done something we did not like" I make a noise kinda ignoring him staying curled up. He keeps trying to get me to stop acting the way I am but always fails, I need to wake up from this nightmare I want to go home.