Jae's Love

Oh BABY

Jaes POV

I woke up to the sound of doctors talking loud and rushing me into the er. I was so terrified I didn't even remember I was carrying a child. Everything was a blur all I could see was a lot of lights and fast moving people.

I BLACKED OUT AGAIN.

After waking up again I felt empty. I was cold and very scared. Once my eyes opened all the way, I started seeing familiar faces...worried familiar faces. My mom was there, my sister jay, Mulan, and Justin. The baby!!! I thought to myself. Oh my God, I lost the baby. I started hyperventilating and began crying. I tried screaming but nothing came out. Everyone jumped up and rushed to my side.

"Baby calm down" my mom cried.

Everyone began to cry, I just knew my world was ending. I could feel myself blacking out again then the doctor walked in.

"Why is everyone so sad the baby is doing fine, hi mommy, your little man will be in here soon" She said smiling.

"Oh God!" I screamed. I was so excited scared and anxious.

The next thing I know, Keith walked in and stood on the wall next to Jay. The room went quiet again. I could see the look on Justin's face when Keith entered the room.

"Let's give them a minute" my mom said walking out the room. I really didn't want to be alone with them at the time but I knew it was coming.

"How's the baby" Keith asked.

"Lil man straight" Justin said between clinched jaws.

The tension was so thick you couldn't cut it with a knife baby we needed a chainsaw.

"A boy huh" Keith said with a little smirk.

I just laid there silently watching them both with my eyes bucked, I didn't know what to do or say. I was stuck.

Once again, the room went quiet.

"Well here he is mommy and da...." The nurse paused not knowing who was daddy or not. Ian gone lie the shit was funny but very sad. I felt like a lil dirty whore. My son came in the world confused and it's all my fault.

My heart rate began to speed up and so did my breathing. I was so scared to look at the baby, i was scared he was going to look like either Keith or Justin. The nurse finally made her way over with him. All I could see was a beautiful head of thick black hair. I began to smile...it all was feeling surreal to me.

"Here you go" she said handing me the small bundle.

Soon as I laid eyes on my son all the troubles of the world ceased. At that moment I dedicated my whole life to him. I felt so warm and jittery inside. Seeing his small brown eyes made my heart stop. My son was the most precious thing I had ever seen in my life.

"Hi, Kholten" I managed to get out between tears.

My family started back entering the room. The moment was beautiful.

Of course he looked like a little yellow tinted potato so I couldn't really tell who he looked like but I knew he was mines and that's all that mattered at the time.

Justin and Keith both held him one after the other. They were being very mature about the situation and I really appreciated that.

Moments later the nurse returned with his name tag and papers for me to fill out.

"Hello little one" my sister said holding him, "I would call you by your name but I don't know it yet" she joked.

"Kholten", Justin, Keith and I said in unison.

"Well damn" Mulan said laughing.

"Kholten Jace" I said, not mentioning a last name on purpose.

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Jaes POV

The next day I was being released right along with my healthy baby boy. My mom picked me up just to keep down baby daddy confusion. My son still didn't have a last name. I had exactly one week to get his birth certificate completed. Hopefully I would know in a few days.

We arrived to my house and of course there were a lot of people there waiting on our arrival but honestly I just wanted some rest.

Jay came out and helped me carry Kj things inside.

"SURPRISE" everyone yelled. My house was jammed packed with old friends and co workers. I couldn't lie, I was slick happy to see everyone.

"Well sister since you didn't get a chance to have a baby shower, we decided to surprise you with one" Mulan said looking like she was about to explode.

I couldnt do anything but cry, I love my people and I know Kholten was well taken care of if anything ever happened to me.

"Aww don't cry" my mom said. "We love you baby"

My baby shower was great. Kholten had literally two or more of everything from cribs,walkers, strollers, diaper bags, shoes, clothes, and diapers, I was set for life on diapers.

Everything was great. When things began to die down my mom watched Kj while I soaked in the tub. My body was numb under the steaming hot water, it was therapeutic. Right when I was about to dose of, my phone vibrated.

Can I see my son? Justin texted.

I didn't know what to say or even if I should reply.

Tomorrow, we're both tired right now. I said feeling guilty. I just didn't have the energy for it tonight.

I got out and went into the living room for Kholten. I couldn't help but take a picture of him and my mom both knocked. It was adorable.

"Ma, I got him" I said taking him from her chest. She rose up and kissed him on the cheek and hugged me. "He's perfect Jae, goodnight, call me if you need me" she said laying back down on the sofa. She was staying a few days to help out.

After checking his diaper, I laid him down and prayed. I loved this little boy with every ounce of my heart. I just watched him and smiled until I began to doze off.