I wanted to cry
But no tears came out.
I wanted to die
But I have no courage to do it.
I wanted to cut my wrist deeper
But my hands are shaking.
I wanted to runaway
But I can't move my feet.
I wanted to hide
But I'm afraid of the dark.
I wanted to think clearly
But my head is spinning.
I wanted to kill the demons inside me
But it's swallowing me and eating me.
I wanted to fight
But I have no strength.
I wanted to be okay,
But how?
Someone, please, help me.
Look straight into my eyes
Not just in my smile.
See how broken I am,
See how wasted I am,
See how helpless I am,
Right now.
Can someone help me
And make me feel better again?
No one, I know, there's no one will.
And now, I know
That I'm alone with this.
(March 2016)
