Love + Abuse

Love + Abuse Chapter 8

I started to walk out of the kitchen but Dixon stood in the way of me.
"Dixon...move! Please?" Dixon stood his ground and didn't even move an inch. I tried to push him out of the way but he wouldn't budge an inch.
"I'm not moving until you tell me who the father is...so start talking. NOW!" I sighed and at that moment I wished I had kept my mouth shut, it wasn't worth it. I didn't want to put Devante in this kind of situation, Dixon would hurt Devante and if Devante could kill Lasheye, he could kill Dixon too and I couldn't handle that.
"I don't know the guy." I started to cry to distract Dixon and his face relaxed and he put his arms around me, holding me close and kissed my forehead.
"It'll be alright...It'll be alright." He kept saying. I put my arms around him and didn't move, I wanted to stay in his arms forever and not let go, I felt safe whenever I was around him, as if nobody could ever touch me or hurt me. 

Dixon let go of me and held me at arms length. He looked me into my eyes and spoke again.
"Dinah, just tell me! I won't freak out. Please? Just tell me what's happened with you? You've never even told us where you were for this past year and a half when you were missing, something is not right."
"Dixon, please just leave it alone! I don't want to talk about any of this...not right now ok?" I ran out of the door and slammed it behind me running round the corner so that Dixon couldn't come after me. I started walking down the road and went through the alley over to the park. I sat down on a slide and put my knees on my chest, stroking my shoes. I looked around at the deserted park and just wished that I could disappear, wished that I could be somewhere else, anywhere but on this Earth where i was undergoing so much pain and hurt. 
"Beautiful girls, all over the world, i could be chasing but my time would be wasted, they got nothin on you baby, nothin on you baby." I took my phone from my pocket and looked at the caller i.d, it read "Dixon", I pressed reject because I didn't want to talk to him right now, he would only talk about the baby and try to find out that Devante was the father...would he suspect Ali? Dixon and the rest of my family didn't even know about the miscarriage I had, they didn't even know that I was pregnant before and I never intended for them to find out either. 

Dixon phoned 5 more times and then I guess he gave up trying, he would eventually see me when I got home anyways. I stared up at the sky, watching the clouds go by and wishing I was with Lasheye right now. As I started to think Ali came onto my mind and I soon started thinking about the day we had ran away from home...

*Flashback*
I opened up the window and Ali climbed in, dropping onto my carpet with a quiet thud.
"Shh!" I whispered loudly to Ali, I screwed him and he grinned at me, causing me to smile at him because he always left me feeling weak when he looked at me that way. 
"Do you really wanna do this Dinah? Once we leave, there's no coming back." I looked around my room and sat down on my bed, putting my bag with my stuff inside on the floor. Ali came and sat down next to me and put his arms around me.
"I can't stand it here any longer Ali, they don't want us to be together and I love you. I can't be without you, we have to go." I looked Ali in his hazel green eyes and he looked back at me, licking his lips then taking his arms from around me and putting them on my waist.
"Ok then boo, if this is what you want."
"Isn't this what YOU want too?" Ali looked baffed and confused as if I had just slapped him round the face
"Course this is what I want, I wanna be with you forever, and make you mine properly one day, I just want to make sure that your sure before you regret this later on." I shook my head and Ali cupped my chin and kissed me softly on the lips, I returned the kiss and put my arms around his neck causing us to move even closer to each other. 

We broke apart and I stroked Ali's face with my hand, kissing him slowly on the cheek, leaving a smudge behind. 
"You know I love you right?" Ali whispered in my ear so that no one downstairs could hear. I smiled at him and put my lips against his ear causing him to shiver slightly.
"I love you too Ali." I could feel him grinning and he put his head down, looking embarassed and going red. Aww bless him, he was the love of my life and I never wanted us to be apart, we would have the perfect future together. We lay down on the bed just cuddling and kissing for five minutes, but then Ali checked the time on his rolex.
"Dinah...we have to go now." I could feel tears forming in my eyes, this could be the last time I was ever going to see my family again, my mum...my brothers. I knew I had to get a grip and just move on with life, I couldn't say bye to them because they would know I was going to run away, and I wouldn't let them or anyone come between me and Ali being together properly. I got up off the bed, leaving Ali in the same position and grabbed my bag, making sure I had everything I needed with me. 
"I'm ready." Ali gave me the "are you sure look" and I nodded my head so he hopped off the bed and took my bag from my hands. He walked through the window and took my bag with him, I followed behind him and he held my hand to lead me along the roof. We walked along (the roof isn't that high) and went down the stairs, trying not to make alot of noise. 

Ali let me go in front so he could throw the bag down. I jumped down from the stairs and Ali threw the bag down for me to catch then he jumped down too. He hugged me tightly because he obviously knew this was a hard decision for me to make and we couldn't turn back now. I put my arms around him and breathed in his scent, I always loved the smell of him, he smelt like a mix of different colognes, but in a good way. He kissed me on my cheek, my forehead and then my lips. I wanted to kiss him forever and ever but we had to go. Ali clasped his hand in mine and we walked off together, I never turned back round to look at the house once....

*Present*
I felt someone tapping me and opened my eyes, I guess I had fallen asleep, I turned to face the person who was tapping me and it was...
"Ali?" He smiled at me with that same smile i used to fall for, he looked much better now as if he had stopped all the drugs which had ruined his looks before. His face was now clear once again, and his body had gone back to the full figure and he had been working out more so his body was more hench, I couldn't help but gaze at him. His hair was tied up and in a long straight ponytail with a wooly hat covering his head but exposing his fresh shape up at the front, his diamond earrings and nose pierce sparkled in my face. I felt so happy just seeing him there in front of me, I had missed this Ali....my Ali.
"Oh Ali!" I got up off the slide and gave him a big hug, he hugged me back and put his head on top of mine, I could smell that scent which I always used to smell on him, it was as if we had gone back in time and we were acting out a scene from the past. I couldn't believe what was happening with us right now. After everything he had put me through and done to me, he was the one person I needed and wanted right now the most. Ali broke apart from me, held my hands and looked into my eyes.
"I will NEVER hurt you again...I promise." I looked away and up into the sky, trying to work out whether or not I could believe what he was telling me...I didn't know what to do but all I knew was, I was still in "love with my ex"....