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Think of your mom walking into your room the way she always checks on you. You've always hated that, but this time it's different. She comes over to your bed to wake you up, so you dont "ruin your sleep tonight." She shakes you gently and says your name, but you're not waking up. She shakes you more violently, thinking your faking sleep. You don't wake up. Why won't you wake up? It's because earlier in the day you just snapped, you needed to get rid of your pain. Your good at hiding your feeling from everyone, so no one suspected it. So your laying on your bed and your mom starts freaking out. She shakes you and shakes you and screams your name, crying out heart breaking sobs. Why did you do this? She thought nothing was wrong! You never told her about your feelings so at your funeral all she can say is I don't know. Your sister walks into the room and doesnt know whats wrong shes old enough to know, but she just can't see it happenig. She didn't show it, but she loved you so much. Shes in a kind of shock, she's denying it even happened. She goes to get your dad because your mom is freaking out. She's screaming now. Why did you do this to her? Why? Your dad walks up and notices what happened right away. He throws something at the wall and breaks down crying. This doesn't happen very often and you would be surprised. Your sister finally comes to, and realizes what she was denying. She calls 9-1-1 and goes to her room and thinks why could you do this to her? She loved you so much. You hear the sirens now. They are coming closer. Everyone knows your dead. Your neighbors come over but your parents won't tell them anything. They tell the rest of the family first, then your friends. You didn't think about this did you? You thought you could commit suicide painlessly. Theres absolutely no way to commit suicide painlessly. You may not know this in your dark times, but at least one person loves you. And that person will suffer without you. I will suffer. They might end up cutting, may have depression, may even try to commit suicide to be with you. You dont want to commit suicide, you just want the pain to end.
