That's an order (SebastianxGrell) (boyxboy)

Prologue

A/N: The wait is over.... Lol I'm sorry I just really wanted to say/write that so yea... Enjoy.

Prologue

~Grell's p.o.v~

Sebastian ... Sebastian....

'Sebastian!' I shot up off the bed screaming. sigh. It was just that damn dream again. For the last few months I've been having troubles sleeping, having the same repetitive dream, always ending with me covered in sweat and screaming for him. The dreams were always so vivid, I would be in the woods, alone, cool, scared, but the he shows up. He would wrap his arms around my waist pulling you close, his warmth and muscular figure making me feel wanted. He would gently left my chin and caressing my cheeks, he would look me in the eyes, his usually icy dark eyes soften giving me comfort. As I look deep into his enchanting blood red eyes, he slowly leans in kissing me gently and passionately. I pant and moan softly, as I begin to lose myself in the pleasure of the kiss I feel his lips form into a smirk, then suddenly  he roughly grabs me and slams me against one of the nearest trees.  I gasp at the sudden sharp pain, I open my eyes confused, I look into his eyes trying to figure out why the sudden roughness, I noticed his once soften eyes glowing with a sinister look.  I would always try to say something, anything, but he would always reconnect our lips before I get the chance to. The kiss would be so much rougher and intense then the first one. As he roughly kissed me I would put my hands on his chest trying to push him away but never finding the strength to do it, he would always have his hand roaming my body, doing as he pleased as his other pinned me to the tree.  His hands would always find there way to the back of my pants underneath my coat, he would slip his hand in and glaze his finger lightly over my entrance. I gasp and he takes the opportunity to slide his tough in my mouth, it was so satisfying, I wouldn't be able to help myself and we would explore each other's mouths. He would tilt his head to deepen the kiss, we were devouring each other, the sensation had left me weak in the knees. He was supporting me up, making me feel.. wanted, loved, but then poof like that he would disappear leaving me alone, cool, scared in the woods just like he had found me, but he had also left me broken.

Ugh. This is so stupid, he has rejected me so many times before why is it that my heart can not understand that he doesn't want me. It hurts to think of all the women he has been with, and that he will never be able to look at me the way he looked at them. I hide behind this expression of a confident person, one not afraid to express their feelings, or even get hurt, but that's not me. I do get hurt, hurt so much, but he never notices, confident or hurt. He never notices or (egknowledges) me. But even all this is true I never give up, hoping that he will notice.

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'Sebas-Chan' I scream joyfully as I ran towards my Sebastian with my arms wide open. 'Not right now, Grell' he said as he said as he had pushed me away with one arm.
'Aww Sebas-Chan if only you could see how right we are for each other, a love of immortal power, a forbidden love that we could seal with a kiss, oh, it's so good! You thrill me Sebas-Chan' I said spinning and blowing him a kiss. He sighed. 'I do not have time for your nonsense today, lord Ciel is unwell and I need to care for him' with that being said Sebastian left me, just like in my dreams.

Even though I continue to smile even when you so cool, on the inside I hurt, I hurt so much but I can't let him see that. What would he think of me if he saw me crying myself to sleep, needing him with me, knowing how I feel about him, what I dream. He can never see me weak. Why do I waste so much time thinking about such unnecessary things, the things I know will never happen, he doesn't care enough about me to notice. He doesn't care about me at all. Sigh. I guess I meant as well go home for the day, it's obvious I'm not wanted here.

As I return to the London's clock tower I slowly walk my way towards my comforting bed that has always been there after every long day. As l climbed in I remove my shoes not bothering to change, as my tired finally rest on top of the soft mattress and pillow I had felt the first tear stream down my face. I grabbed my blanket covering my face, I silently crying ashamed not wanting anyone to see or hear me. I laid there as the tears flowed out, waiting, waiting to let sleep take me from this pain, waiting for the tears to stop, waiting for that dream where Sebastian finally notices me even if it's only to be left alone.

Suddenly I heard footsteps walking in my clock tower, at first I froze scared they had heard me so I had gotten myself together to face this intruder. As I had began to wipe away the tears and stop myself from letting the tears fall the intruder spoke, 'what a mess, don't you ever clean around here' I know that ice cold voice anywhere, it was Sebastian. What is he doing here, I could feel my heart paste quickening. I had to put up my walls, I have to show him the Grell he knows, he can not see me weak, crying and pathetic. I jumped out of out of the bed yelling in my best fake confident voice, 'Sebas-Chan, what a handsome men in front of me I'm not gonna just leave like Cinderella! Even though this love is for..'

'Stop with that nonsense, do I look stupid. I'm not here for this act up put on, I want to see the real you, so don't hide it from me' Sebastian said cutting me off. That's it he knows, I don't know what to say, how do I, how can I show him the real me. My heart began to beat even faster and  my cheeks started burning a hot red. Here he is noticing me, wanting to get to know the real me, this is a dream come true, but yet still I am so terrified. What am I going to do.

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previously

~Sebastian p.o.v~

'Sebastian, what was all that noise' Ciel asked as I walk into the room. 'Nothing to worry you master, you need your rest. And I have already dealt with it' I responded calmly trying to relax Ciel.
'Had it been Grell again.. You are too cold Sebastian, I see the way he looks at you and the way you hurt him. You should give him a chance he couldn't possi..' Ciel continued but I had cut him off mid-sentence, 'Master please stop this nonsense, you must rest you are not well.'
'You need to go now and give him a chance, see his true self, his true love for you' Ciel said raising his voice. 'But master Ciel I need to fulfil my contact with you, and you are unwell who will care for you while I'm gone'
'No buts, the contract is that you follow my command and I command you to stay with Grell and see his true feelings, at least until I am well again. And Mey-Rin, Finnian, Baldroy, and Mr Tanaka can take care of me while you are gone. Now go that's an order'

With that I had been sent out, I was making my way out the door as I hear my young master speak one last thing. 'Oh and Sebastian, he can never know about this being an order. That's an order Sebastian....And please Sebastian don't be too cold, that's his heart your playing with, if your not careful you'll break it' I nod my head in understanding as I walked out of the building. Sigh. This is so childish, looking for true love from that foolish boy, master must be really sick if he thinks I'm to find any type of true emotions from... Grell. Oh well master will be well soon and will see how (rediculess) he's been, oh well meant as well get this over and done with.