Under Her Helmet

the Jay's

We about to play the Jay's. Im in the locker room putting my hair up. I haven't gotten much sleep at all lately,  he always sent a goodnight text and it doesnt feel right without it.

"Alright team, lets go," coach says

I follow the rest of the boys out as the yell and cheer. the best I can do is jog behind them. I knew I wasn't going to play well tonight so ealier I begged coach to sit me out, but of course he refused.

-about an hour later-

the game is stilling going and ive ruined so many passes and touch downs, I'm about to rip my hair out. I've found the dude I kicked in the balls, he's talking to his coach on the side lines, pointing in my direction.

I am feeling several emotions and the need to cry is one of them, so naturally, the female I am, In the middle of a play I rushed off the field to the locker room. one of my best friends, aside from Dee and Bellanne, Aspen rushed to the locker room after me.

"Zia? you okay." he calls out, not finding me in my hiding place sandwiched between the bench press and a wall,

"no," I quietly say

"Zia if you need to take a leave coach will let you. playoffs are almost over. if we win this game, that's it. we only have one left, itll be okay," he asks, trying to locate me.

"i don't want to look weak. There are little girls looking up to me," I say

Some knocks and says something but its muffled from where I'm sitting.

"Yeah Belle you can come in," I hear Aspen say

I instantly shoot up from my spot and race for the door and wrap my practical sister in a hug, even if she was the one here to comfort me.

After I explain everything, for once in my life, I see Belleanne cry. "Ziala you have no idea what its been like to watch you defy all the laws of society on that field. Because if I were strong enough id be out scoring yards and touch downs, but you being out there is just as good and as hypocratic as it sounds, your still a girl. and Zia wether you admit it or not, your were in love and now your hearts broken. I'm sure Dee would be better at explaining this than I am, but Zia your still a girl, its okay to cry, its okay to feel so heartbroken you absolutely can not play and have to run off that dang field. your aloud to give up on tis god forsaken sport. But you, Ziala Lorraine can not give up on your self, or me, or Dee, or Aspen, or the friends you've made while playing. your aloud to give up on that field, but you cant give up on your dream as a rolemodel. Because if I ever looked up to anyone Ziala Lorraine, its sure gonna be you," she lectured me, tears streaming down both our faces "Now you go out there and you show that d*** world that you ain't no weak a** dude," she practically yells.

I nod my head and out my helmet back on. And with two of my best friends I march up to the announcers box.

"i need to borrow that mic," I say grabbing the mic and pausing the time on the score board "hey guys, I'm number 11, Lorraine, from our home team tonight. Since the 7th grade ive played on this team. And yesterday I lost the love of my life. Because of this I must resign from my place on our team. but before I do, I want to tell everyone here, that your star quarter back is a freaking girl and to the ladies, young or old, you can do any dang thing you want to. Ziala Lorraine out," I say, handing the mic back to the principal and taking my helmet off.

When we walked back dow from the box, a little girl with a Jay's tee shirt on came up and hugged me. I was surprised when the same dude I injured last night came up, behind her.

"That took guts Lorraine, that took guts," he said putting his arm around the 8 year old girl. "if you ever get made fun of for it, call the team, we'll beat their a**," he said covering the little girl's ears and handing me a small card before walking off.

"did he actually just give you his number after all you've been through. oh I gonna kick hi-" Belle starts but I interrupt

" its okay Belle, he's only trying to help," I say

"your not actually considering that are you? Am I not big enough a body guard?" Aspen asks

"please Aspen. its a wonder I actually got a boyfriend with you here. You scare everyone off!" I say spreading my arms out widely at the end to exaggerate it.

"Just don't let anyone forget that," he said ruffling my hair and going to sit with his mom

"you wanna ditch this place and go to your house. I'm honestly bored of football," Belle says

"you know what? I think I might be too

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A/N hey guys sorry it took forever to update, ive just kinda forgotten about tbis boo recently. also I know this chapter is short but I wanted to get it up as quickly as possibly so I promise the next one will be longer and not as sappy and emotional as this onw

xoxo Ally