A Hand To Hold

One Shot

I should hate him.

But I still love him.

I'm so sad.

But then again, was I ever happy?

Two years into my union with Thor and I feel drained. I promised Laufey a successful marriage for the benefit of my realm but my resolve crumbles a little more each day.

We need this.

But Father....

Loki, our people are suffering. There. Is. No. Other. Way.

He does not love me.

Love can be learned.

He hates us.

Odin promised me your protection. We already agreed.

Alright.

Thor doesn't love me, not enough anyway. We lay together but it always feels mechanical. An obligatory act that must be accomplished every now and then. I'm Jotun, I need proper stimulation to bond and conceive. Thor is either ignorant of that part or simply uncaring. He needs an heir which I am willing and capable of giving but I fear he doesn't want a half-breed.

I think I've always liked you.

Is it enough to marry me?

I've seen you enough times during banquets in Asgard to know that you're tolerable.

This is the first I've set foot in Jotunheim.

Do you not mind marrying a Frost Giant?

I'm not certain.

We can just not marry Thor, if this union burdens you.

I have given Allfather my word.

So have I.

I can't burden Thor anymore. I love him enough to let him go. He asked me to go with him to Vanaheim and we went. He was the perfect husband in public...we even held hands. My heart swelled for the first time. But mead was clouding his mind when he came to our room and in the midst of heat and minimal pleasure, Thor spoke his mind...

Loki...

Thor...

My Jotun runt....

.......

All mine...now...always...

.......

Your Jotun runt?

Yes, mine.

Why would you call me that?

It is true. Is it not?

I'm.....

I have made my decision, Thor needs an heir, my body won't cooperate, it can't. My realm needs to persevere without Asgard's aid. I am a Prince. I will find another way.

Prince Loki, they need you in the healing chamber.

Do you know why?

Prince Thor was cornered by one of the bigelsnipe they were hunting down. He hasn't woken yet.

What?!

I've decided my fate but I need to see to Thor first. It only took a month of proper care from me and he is up and about again. Time to speak to the Allfather.