Psychotic love

Jays day

(hey guys, sorry i haven't wrote in a while, i sorta forgot.)

It was a boring day at school, same old, same old. I walked out of school and put in my earbuds, but i noticed this girl out of the corner of my eye, she was stunning. who is she?
she had long brown hair and hazel eyes that looked so pretty in the sun. She was wearing a bring me the horizon shirt with a red and black plaid shirt over it and black skinny jeans, she was perfect. But what is her name? How have i never seen her before?
I got home and i started searching for her, it sounds a bit pedoish but i NEEDED to see her again, i can't even begin to explain how perfect she is.
I found her, Her name is Alex greenough, she looks like an alex, i want her to be my alex.
But i'm just little old Jay who constantly tries to kill themself and when i'm not doing that, i'm ruining my body. But her body is just.. perfect. I can't stop going on about how perfect she is, i can't compromise.
Hopefully she doesn't do anything to herself, Surely she can't??
I had an idea. I was going to message her.
But what do i put without looking too desperate? should i just start with a simple hey? or i saw you today and you looked nice? no that's weird because then she'll know i've been looking for her. I'll just start with a hey and hope i won't look too weird.
She's online now.
i hope to god she replies.
she's the one.