Life after you

England fiddled nervously with his guitar as he waited for America to come back. This was probably the most important time of his life and he knew he couldn't screw this up. If he did that was it. It would all be over....for good. He was so lost in his own thoughts that he didn't notice the loud American walk up behind him.

"Dude chill. Everything is going to be alright." America said, slapping England on the back.

England jumped, almost dropping his guitar, and turned to face America. "Alfred don't do that! You scared the bloody hell out of me. Nothing will be alright if you give me a heart attack!"

"Oh stop being so dramatic." America rolled his eyes and pushed England to the stage."Now get out there and sing your heart out. You're on"

England gulped. "Already? But what if they haven't made it here yet? This will all be for nothing if they aren't here. Though I can't blame them for not showing up. I wouldn't show up if I was them." The shorter blonde rambled on.

America sighed and continued to push England up to the stage. "England listen to me you are going to be fine. They are both here. You need to just relax and focus on playing."

England nodded and took a few deep breaths. He gave America a shaky smile before making his way out onto the stage. He could barely hear the announcer over the blood rushing in his ears. He refused to look out across the crowded bar afraid to see the two people this was all for.

Closing his eyes he started to play the first few chords of his song, hearing the rest of the band join in. He was so focused on the music he almost missed the que for him to start singing. Luckily for him America nudged him in time and he let the words flow out. Switching his foucus from the music to the words. Letting all his emotions seep into every word he sang.

Ten miles from town 
And I just broke down
 Spitting out smoke on the side of the road
 I'm out here alone
 Just trying to get home
 To tell you I was wrong, but you already know
 Believe me, I won't stop at nothing to see you
 So I've started running

Memories of the past few years came rushing back to him. He had tried so hard to just forget but they kept coming. The terrible things he had done and said. All of it perfectly crystal clear. Oh how wrong he had been. How miserable.

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter 
As long as I'm laughing with you
 And I think that all that still matters is love ever after
 After the life we've been through
 'Cause I know there's no life after you

But it wasn't just the bad memories that came back. He remembered all the love and laughter as well. The good times were just as strong as the bad times.

Last time we talked 
The night that I walked 
Burns like an iron in the back 
Of my mind 
I must have been high 
To say you and I weren't meant to be 
And just wasting my time 
Oh why did I ever doubt you 
You know I would die here without you

Flashback~

Another argument had broken out in the house. England wasn't even sure what it was about this time. He was sure it was over something stupid again and not even sure if this could be considered an argument until he decided to open his big mouth yet again.

"Unless you have something useful to add Arthur kindly shut up and fuck off." Prussia snapped at England.

England tried to stop himself from getting worked up from what Prussia said but it had been a long day of meetings and he was at wits end.

"Fine Beilschmidt. I will, as you said, kindly fuck off." He said as he stormed off to his study, locking the door behind him. He sighed to himself as he made his way to his nest in the middle of the room. England dug under heaps of pillows, clothes, and other like items till he found an almost full bottle of alcohol. Without a care he took a long swing from it as he listened to Canada and Prussia continue their argument then quickly make up.

It wasn't until hours later that Canada and Prussia had realized England was still in his study and by time they broke in to check on him he was royally pissed and in a foul mood.

Canada slowly made his way over to join England unlike Prussia who just jumped right on top of him.

"Honestly Prussia stop being so fucking childish!" England snapped temper quickly rising. "And both of you get out!"

"Arthur we just wanted to check on you." Canada replied sitting down next to him.

"Yeah Artie! No need to get all cranky." Prussia said laughing.

This was it for England and he snapped, "Well if you weren't so bloody annoying I wouldn't be so cranky. But noooo you just have to constantly push all my buttons. Guess what I'm done. This was never going to work in the first place. What was I thinking? This is just a waste of my time!"

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter 
As long as I'm laughing with you 
And I think that all that still matters is love ever after
 After the life we've been through
 'Cause I know there's no life after you

England felt tears start streaming down his face as after the memories of the past few weeks came back to him. He cleared his throat as the next part started but did nothing to stop the tears running down his face.

You and I, right or wrong 
There's no other one 
After this time spent alone It's hard to believe
 That a man with sight could be so blind
 Thinking about the better times 
Must've been out of my mind 
So I'm running back to tell you

England shook himself out of his memories and finally searched out the two people who meant more than anything in the world to him. He quickly found Prussia and Canada over by the bar. Just like him they were both sporting tear tracks and fresh tears just waiting to spill over. He put everything he had in the next few versus trying to get across to them just how sorry he was. He slowly made his way off the stage and over to them, never breaking eye contact.

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter 
Without you God knows what I'd do
 All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
 As long as I'm laughing with you

And I think that all that still matters is love ever after
 After the life we've been through 
I know there's no life after you 
No there's no life after you 
No there's no life after you 
No there's no life after you 
No there's no life after you 
No there's no life after you
No there's no life after you ya

He stopped in front of them just as the song ended. Kneeling down he took both of their hands in his and looked at them sincerely, "I know this probably doesn't make up for all the shitty things I've done but please forgive me. I can't go on without you two. I love you with all my heart and I will do anything to make it up to you."

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AN: Nothing belongs to me. The song is by Daughtry and the characters are all part of Hetalia which is owned by Hidekaz Himaruya. There might be another part if it's asked but as for now this is it. Sorry for how terrible it is I made this at three in the morning.